Rational

Recently, I have adopted a new ideology. This pertains to the view that there is no God/god or gods. Anyone who believes otherwise is delusional. The strong basis of such idea is God's Ratio. The events occur independently of prayers. Prayers, to whoever deity or entity, for that matter, don't affect the outcome of an event. And for every one prayer that is answered, there is an extremely high number of corresponding cases of the other event, the event in which the prayer wasn't answered. Assuming that most of the prayers are for good things, then this means that God doesn't answer any prayer (if He indeed exists). The previous statement leads to a contradiction and we can therefore conclude that God does not exist! I’m not an atheist; I’m just a rational being.

Burned Out

This should not have been happening. The summer season and vacation is the time but I feel tired, as tired or even more than during the last semester. I promise that I will make up for this foolishness of mine by devoting at least 8 hours daily to studying my past lessons, improving my memory, and leaving a clean life. I restrain myself more with regards to letting myself bad thoughts. Inner reflection is needed. By the end of the this week, I shall have decided what I will do with my life, what career path I will take, and what type of character I shall have developed. I really feel uneasy with respect to my relatives back at Cavite. I do not want to emulate their unpleasant ways. But I still want to keep my options open as possible. I shall have slept by 10 P.M.

As of 14 April 2006

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About Me: I am Joel Tolentino Duque. Currently, I am a 3rd year student at UP Diliman taking up the undergraduate course BS Biology. In high school, Biology was my waterloo. That may, in part, explain my poor performance in my Biology subjects. My card grades in Biology 11 is 2.5, 12 = 2.5, 180 = 2.25, 102 = 3, 115 = 2.5, and 140 = 2.25. My mother convinced me, somehow, to study biology to become a good medical student and eventually a doctor in the future. In the past, my mother was denied access to the medical school in UST just because her father was a farmer. That translated, more or less, to the questionable capacity of her parents to pay for her supposedly high tuition fees. Had she known this, she told me that she have put 'landlord' as the occupation of her father. And so here I am, more than half way through my course. I liked my Economics subject in high school, having obtained the gold medal for that subject in high school. Also, I liked Mathematics for a long time, from my years in preparatory school all the way to my last year in high school. I could've taken up BS Economics or BS Mathematics instead but I guess I have failed myself for not having asserted to my family, especially to my mother that I didn't want to be a doctor. I don't know to what extent I am prejudging Medicine with Biology. My life is definitely starting to unfold before me and I have no idea to where I am going or what I'll be doing in the next, 5, 10, or 20 years in my life. Life is both fortunate and unfortunate. It is full of questions. Unfortunate because the roads are uncertain and the events are random. And fortunate because there are wonderful and not so wonderful but normal people, nonetheless, who have been there to comfort me and give me a semblance of normality plainly because of their existence. I give my biggest thanks to you. Let's face life with a renewed sense of faith and leap towards the bright tomorrow!

Describe Who You Want to Meet: Before, I wanted to date the object of my infatuation, send her text messages, call her on the phone and most of all, be close to her. But then, I realized that a true healthy loving and caring relationship cannot and will not exist if only I desire it. And so after the many months of hoping to get her attention, which rather unfortunately turned out to be a very inauspicious way of obtaining it, I eventually retired on my hopes of knowing her--who she really is. My indecisiveness has deceived me twice: my choice of an undergraduate course and the chance of befriending her. Now, at least, I can say that I have learned from my experience of a 'heart break'. I mustn't say that I will never love again. Nevertheless, I am sure that when the time comes that my partner or soul mate shall be there, I will unfailingly strive hard to protect our relationship and future. Yes, it is truly a harsh world, harsher than the arid deserts and the smoldering heat of the volcanoes. May God help me.

Greed/Kasakiman

"Greed is the rule of life." -- Joel Duque

"Kasakiman ang sigalot ng buhay." -- Joel Duque

Reformatting

"I have to reformat both my personal computer and myself." -- Joel Duque

NMAT

I'll be taking the NMAT tomorrow at around 7:00 A.M. Please guide me in the beginning, during and until the end of the examination. May it be well not only for me but for all of the takers. I'll sleep now.

2nd Semester Grades

2nd Semester, 2005-2006

Subject	Grade
PI 100	1.00
BIO 101
BIO 101	2.50
BIO 120	1.75
BIO 120
BIO 150	2.00
BIO 150
Math 2	1.00

Thus, my semestral GWA is 1.676 which means that I am a College Scholar. I'll be happy once again for achieving this feat. I promise that I will make it again next semester. I shall not fail you, my comrades!