Darna

Tila birhen kung lumipad
Nahulog sa bangin
Ako'y napaungol
Sa dalagang nababalot ng wala

Mapapansin ka ba
Sa dami ng 'king ginagawa
Kung kaagaw mo ang lahat
May pag-asa bang makaresling ka

Awit na nangingisay
Baka sakaling nakamamatay
Galit na palaisipan
Sa 'yo na lang iraraos

Nag-aabang, parang sa counter
Sa mga damo sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga puno
Kahit tsansing lang Darna

Ang malas nga naman ni Ding
Lagi ka niyang kasiping
Kung ako lang sa kanya
Kinatay na kita

Mapapansin ka ba
Sa dami ng 'king ginagawa
Kung kaagaw mo ang lahat
May pag-asa bang makaresling ka

Awit na nangingisay
Baka sakaling nakamamatay
Galit na palaisipan
Sa 'yo na lang iraraos

Nag-aabang, parang sa counter
Sa mga damo sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga puno
Kahit tsansing lang Darna

Tumalon kaya ako sa hangin
Para lang makatakas
Saydang ito ang paraan
Para maiwasan ka

Darating pa rin
Kahit maraming ginagawa
Kung kaagaw mo'y marami
Paano na?

Awit na nangingisay
Baka sakaling nakamamatay
Galit na palaisipan
Sa 'yo na lang iraraos

Nag-aabang, parang sa counter
Sa mga damo sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga puno
Kahit tsansing lang Darna

Nag-aabang, parang sa counter
Sa mga damo sumisilip
Sa likod ng mga puno
Kahit tsansing lang Darna

Tala: Wala lang. Ang sarap maglaro ng mga salita. Matagal ko na talagang ninais ang gawin ito. Mula ito sa kantang "Narda" mula sa album na Maharot ng bandang Kamikazee.

Kamalian

Nagsisimula na akong magsawa sa kadedepensa sa aking sarili. Alam kong hindi ito maganda. Kaugnay nito, kailangan kong magsatupad ng counter-measures. Iwas-bangag. Tulog ng maaga. Dapat magkaroon ng konkretong direksyon ang aking mga prioridad: ang aking sarili, pamilya, karir, kaibigan at magiging pamilya. Ang pagkakaroon ng mission-vision ay isa sa mga ito.

Berdugo

Pasensya ka na sa nagawa kong desisyon. Kahit na papaano, alam kong apektado ka nito. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dahilan, pero nagigilti ako sa hindi ko pagpabor sa iyo. Mahirap ang naging desisyon ko. Hanggang ngayon, may bahid pa rin ng kakulangan ng hustisya. Isang buong taon, tila nabaliwala. Haay. Umasa kasi ako, kahit papaano, na papabor sa iyo ang iba, ang karamihan. Nagkamali ako. Para saan nga ba ang ginawa namin? Kung eksaktong-eksaktong sa eksaktong pamantayan, bakit pa namin iyon gagawin? Nasa kontrol ako sa sitwasyon, bagaman bahagya'y mayroon pa rin. Ang lahat ng ginawa ko ay para sa ikabubuti ng samahan at sa interes na rin mo. Kasi kung gusto mo talaga iyon ng ganoon kasama, hindi lang ganoon ang sana'y naging perpormans mo. Hindi ko na babanggitin kung sino ka (at mga kasama mo), alam mo na naman e. Pero kung talagang gusto mo talaga ito at ang tumuloy kalaunan sa kurso sa pagkadoktor sa medisina, malakas ang payo ko na subukan mo uli sa susunod na taon. Sadyang malaki ang naitulong ng naturang samahan sa aking buhay at sa paggabay sa akin tungo sa tamang-daan. Hindi siya pabigat at hindi siya dapat maging hadlang sa direksyong pang-akademiko. Matuto ka sa iyong mga naging pagkakamali.

Sa letrang L

Lubos na makapangyarihan ang wika. Ito ay sumasalamin sa lebel ng karunungan ng isang kultura. Kung may o maraming salita para sa isang bagay, ibig sabihin ay mahalaga o talamak ito sa naturang pangkat ng mga nilalang. Dahil sa napansin ko na mukhang mahilig ang mga Pilipino sa mga kanta ukol sa pag-ibig, naisip kong tingnan ang 'maitim' na kasingkahulugan nito: ang salitang "libog". (Kahit na sa mga matatandang kantang kundiman, mapupunang 'cheesy' talaga tayo.) Heto na po:

libog: utog, iyag, lanya
iyag: pagkaseksi, halay
halay: sagwa, laswa, bastos, bulgar
sagwa: gaslaw, gaspang, labis
laswa: tungayaw, lapastangan
bastos: garapal, mumurahin
bulgar: palasak
gaslaw: harot, likot, karatsa
gaspang: ligasgas

Sayang

Wala lang. Sayang lang oras ko kasi wala akong skedyul na ginawan na akin sanang susundin. Pramis ko na gagawa ako ng sked, gagawin yung mga gawain ayon sa sched. maksimum ng 2 oras ng kompyuter, maglilinis ng kwarto, mag-aayos ng bag, tutulong sa gawain bahay, mag-eeksersays, isasaisip at isasapuso ang lahat ng mga gawain at balakin.

Maria

* Ate, patawad po sa pagsasalita ko ng basura laban sa iyo. Ako ang may kasalanan kung bakit nasira yung dagang optikal ko. Ang babaw talaga. Bumili naman ako ng pampalit mula sa CD-R King.
* Hindi kailangang parating bago ang regalo.
* Kakainis talaga yung nangyari kanina sa Novaliches. Nagparinig yung tita ko tungkol sa hindi ko paniniwala na may Diyos. Kung mayroon lang sanang silahis ng pag-asang maiintidihan niya ako, idinepensa ko sana yung sarili ko at ang aking mga paniniwala. Nakakainis talaga kasi naroon pa yung pamilya ko at mga pinsan. At bakit nangyari ang lahat ng ito? Dahil sa tatay ko. Siya ang nagkwento sa tita ko na ateista ako. Sabi niya hindi ko dapat itago iyon at maiintidihan naman daw ako nito. Pero dati pa namin alam na sarado Romano Katoliko itong tita kong tumulong ng malaki sa pagbibigay sa amin ng suporta pinansyal. Ang gusto lang naman talaga ng tatay ko ay yaong hindi ko/namin itago ang katotohanan sa tita ko (na ateista ako). Ang punto ko naman ay hindi ko naman ikinakaila iyon. Mas okey nga lang kung hindi namin siya gabayan tungo sa pagkakaalam noon. Sa sama ng loob ko, naging tulala ako sa malaking bahagi ng aming pagdalaw. Dinaan ko na lamang ang aking sama ng loob sa paglamon ng pansit, ang paborito kong ulam. Medyo gago nga ako kasi halatang masama yung loob ko at hinid ako sumagot kahit na kinausap ako.

Lipas

Pasensya na
Pasensya na't minahal kita
Minahal kita ng labis
At labis mo 'kong sinaktan
Masakit isipin
Sumama ang loob ko
 magmula noong araw na iyon
 hanggang sa ngayon
Ang araw na 'yong ipinamukha
 sa 'king wala
Wala 'ko sa 'yong pag-asa
Na hindi mo 'ko mahal
Ibang lalaki ang nasa puso mo
Hindi ako
Bakit?
Kung bakit ba kasi nagawa
 kitang takutin at saktan
Ako mismo ang naglayo ng loob
 mo sa 'kin
Kung maibabalik ko lang
 ang nakaraan
Inayos ko sana ang gulong ako
 ang nagsimula
Ngunit sa ngayo'y huli na
 ang lahat
Tadhana ang nagpakitang
 ako ay isang duwag
Hindi ako karapat-dapat sa 'yo
Hindi tayo karapat-dapat
 sa isa't isa
Tumigil ang daloy ng panahon
Halos sinira ko ang aking sarili
 dahil sa galit
Sinayang ko ang oras
 sa kaiisip sa 'yo
Kahit na sigurado akong
 ni isang saglit ay
 'di ako sumagi sa isip mo
Suko na ako sa labang ito
Maging wala sa 'tin ang nagwagi
Ito ang unang malaking
 kabiguan ko
Nangyari sa palad mo
Siguro hindi ka pa rin masaya
Kahit na nakaganti ka na
Marahil dahil 'di mo 'to alam
Wala na 'kong pakialam
Hindi ko na mithiing
 paligayahin ka
Lipas na tayo

Buhay Slavehack

Ang buhay ay parang Slavehack (isang hacking game). Tayong lahat ay mga kompyuter. Sa ating mga interaksyon ay hinahack natin ang bawat isa. Maraming tao ang garapalan sa pakikipagkilala habang ang iba naman ay sobrang mahiyain. Sa mabuti man o masamang intensyon ay nag-iiwan tayo ng marka sa ibang tao: virus. Ang iba sa atin ay may kakayahang tanggalin ito sa pamamagitan ng anti-virus, ngunit ang iba ay mas pinipiling hayaan ito sa kani-kaniyang mga sistema. Ang marka ay maaaring seryoso (spam) o hindi seryoso (warez). Importante ang mga maralita at mga taong magagago upang sila'y iyong maabuso at pagkaperahan (slaves). (Patama ito sa sobrang kuripot at hindi makatao kung magtrato sa mga manggagawa/katulong.)

Kapag ang isang tao ay napuno na, maaari siyang gumawa ng isang krimen laban sa kanyang kapwa (DDoS attacks). Ito ay lubos na nakapaparalisa sa kanyang kaaway, lalo na kung ito ay grabe at maramihan.

Upang umakit ng maraming mga may kwenta o kapaki-pakinabang na mga kaibigan, kailangang magkaroon ng pinakabago at pinakamataas na mga kasangkapan (software at hardware). Mahalaga rin ang mga matitinong koneksyon (internet connection) at dambuhalang tambakan (harddrive). Mayroon din namang ikalawa at ikatlong pagkakataon sakaling magkamali (external harddrive, banks, ip resets). Ang pinakamahalagang gawain ay ang magkamal ng pera at reputasyon.

Wala na

'Malaking pagkakamali. Napakalaking pagkakamali na ako ang inibig mo, sinasabi ko!' -- sinabi ng dati kong kamag-aral sa aking kaibigan

Mapapaputang-ina ka talaga kapag binasted ka ng isang babae. Oo, babae. Ngunit ang naturang babae ay hindi lang basta-basta--siya ay ang binibining tinitibuk-tibok ng iyong puso.

Med tip

Applying to med schools? Yes. Best tip I got: Be a doctor. (Be doctor-like.) Makes sense to me.

Attempted

I attempted to write about some nice things last semester but I was probably too busy. I may or may not choose to do so. Taking advantage of the limited time that I have for these things, I will make 'summaries' instead. They are:
1. Potential: what I have--I have plenty of potential.
2. Ecology: ultimate brain cell decimator--Ecology is the hardest subject ever in college. We did many things; so many and so much effort!
3. Authority: I hate--I like being free. I identify myself as an entrepreneur and a hacker.
4. Laziness--I am so lazy. I have to change because lazy people simply don't succeed in life.
5. Ideal/perfect thinker--I think so much and I always dream of attaining unity which is impossible. I give myself a hard time.
6. Games (Tekken) I will not play. I was addicted with playing Tekken 3 (SNES-emulated). This is in light that I should be busy with school work.
7. Nothing--Nothing will change anybody by leaps and bounds. This is probably very true.
8. Remnant--I don't remember the idea on this title.

Marathon: 12th of 15 parts

GMA's faults from a leftist's perspective

You either like or hate a person. I have seen Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo (GMA) from a bright side in a previous post in this blog (Lakas ng Milenyo). Now it's time to see her from my dark, negative side. GMA is a devil, willing to propagate nothing but the gain of the already rich or her allies. For her, order is the most important. This is why she tries to water down all political rallies or demonstrations against her. But what the majority of Filipinos don't understand is that the basis for people to go against the current government is sound.

If you can't get along, that's fine. This is the reason why I am here; I'll try best to show the position of a leftist, and why GMA, the current president of the Republic of the Philippines, is the number one enemy of the Filipinos. The left is for equality. Everybody owns everything in a communist setting. There is no private ownership. Public ownership is the one and only type of ownership recognized by the state. All for one and one for all. From a democratic perspective, it looks as if there would be no drive for excellence or efficiency in a politically-left community. But when it is examined more closely, it can be done. When everybody in the state thinks as one, i.e. thinks and does things for the good of the state, then the multiplier and auspicious cycle goes on and on, like being in a state of perpetual motion. Accordingly, well-run communist countries have the inherent capacity for self-sufficiency, well-capable of surviving and even flourishing during a period of isolation.

GMA is bent on the maintenance of foreign hegemony over the Philippine markets. Nothing whatsoever has been done to stop or slow down the influx of imported goods to our islands. If this is not discontinued, then damage could be so great that getting up from this knockout since the time of colonizers be automatically be futile. Nationalism is an intrinsic characteristic of the left. It basks in nationalist propaganda on any kind of mass media.

GMA is crazy on anything about development. She matters little on the effects of the large-scale mining on Philippine mountains on the environment and public health. Safety is not prioritized over monetary profit. On the long run, if this goes unabated, we shall have spent more for public health and immeasurable losses in terms of human productivity over the meager earning from uncontrolled environmental exploitation in terms of magnitude and rate. The good of the many, of the majority should be first.

GMA is for the increase of taxes. This was done in many ways, with the EVAT being the most notorious. It is taxes on almost all goods from the previous rate of 10% to 12%. This was done even if the same amount of revenue could be covered if the Bureau of Internal Revenue (BIR) was efficient in tax collection and not blemished with red tape as it currently is. Taxes were increased even if extreme corruption in government offices is continuous. Plunder is unacceptable in any organization. Taxes should be well thought of and it should be sincere in addressing problems. It should not be done if there are other solutions. It should not be done just because it is convenient.

GMA cheats; she's a certified liar who has the stomach to make promises. She cheated in the election. Everybody knows. Some people know it but they accept it by rationalizing that Fernando Poe Jr. (FPJ) is a great actor but a ridiculous president. Some people think that they currently can do little about the situation, just like I. The Garci tapes revealed everything. I don't know what happened to our justice system. Why is GMA still in office? If she is not the deserving winner, then why is her ass still in the Malacañan Palace? If the justice system failed us, then we should have taken action to unseat her. We don't or shouldn't want an insincere leader running our country. Honesty is supreme in a society of equals.

Democracy betrayed itself in the Philippines. The greatest example was during GMA's stint.

Marathon: 11th of 15 parts

Christmas: An atheist's view

Christmas is the time of year when Christians celebrate the birth of Christ, their lord and savior, into this world. Atheists don't believe in any god, including God.

Pros:
1. Many days don't have classes. No school!
2. Gifts! We get to be given gifts.
3. The season allows being dreamy, taking off our clothes and being much closer to showing our real selves. We have an excuse for daydreaming, for fantasizing, for wishing that loved ones requited our affections.
4. Christmas bonus (13th month pay).
5. Time to pick on what we have left (leisurely activities).
6. People are significantly more generous.
7. We are so young. Whether or not we have enough energy left for the day/night, we have to remain awake.
8. Christmas shows. The fireworks.
9. Solemn. Silent.
10. Everybody instantly metamorphosed into angels.

Cons:
1. It is a holiday that we don't celebrate. Majority of Filipinos are Roman Catholics so we don't have any choice but to accept that such commemoration is taking place.
2. Gifts! We got to spend money to get other people gifts.
3. Rational thinking disallows us to enjoy a season of too much dreams.
4. The bonus is very small. Another way of thinking of it is the management only held onto our well deserved pays which should have been distributed all throughout the past year. This means receiving a monthly amount which is 1.0833x what we normally receive.
5. A chance to temporarily let go of serious stuff. Conditioning ourselves with the truth (again) unfortunately takes a long, long time.
6. So much food that it hurts. Time to get fat. Forget your plan to become fit.
7. Stress. Yes, stress!
8. Christmas problems. Deaths unique to this season. Lives lost which should have been spared only if there's no Christmas.
9. Noisy, self-righteous, hypocritical priests and their lousy sermons (for those who attend the (grand) 'night' masses).
10. Temporary goodness reverts to usual evilness when everything's over. What's with the bandwagon thing? It's too sweet just like Valentines. Deep inside, you recognize the artificiality. The feeling after a good meal only to find out you need to abandon your principles as payment for it. You want vomit but it's useless.

Marathon: 10th of 15 parts

Philippine industrialists; Why aren't there Matsushitas and Hondas here?

I do not know a single industrialist of the Philippines. What I want to express here is what I perceive to be their characteristics and the environment in which they operate.

Industry. What is it? It is the production and sale of goods for commercial purposes. It is a part of the economy composed of manufacturing enterprises (www.answers.com). The Philippine economy has been and still remains backward. Our past leaders have concentrated on industry to the point that they overlooked the importance of the fundamentals. Our country is agricultural and if we are to succeed in living better lives (characterized by equitable distribution of wealth), then we should focus on our agriculture.

What is bad about haphazard industrialization? Our nation became import-dependent and export-oriented. We became chained to this vicious cycle that it made things and circumstances more difficult for us to maneuver. Dollar reserves quickly dwindle for us to sustain industries which are hungry for imported raw materials. Thus, this is an expensive and imprudent exercise of how one should spend money. As for exports, we are forced to release goods and people, skilled and educated people, to maintain an intricate balance in our financial statement.

The bureaucracy is so ridden with graft and corruption. Businesses and economic enterprises aren't allowed to reach or at least approximate their best because the government and political situation is just not conducive for them to move about or even feel what will allow them to make profit quietly. This proves that with an evil and inefficient leadership, everybody suffers, except for a handful which benefits from the blood, sweat, and tears of others. Even if there is no perfect political system, being more sensitive to others and thinking ahead of the effect of every action to the whole picture and even the entire human history and civilization is enough to make an enlightened difference.

Matsushita and Honda. These two Japanese are industrialists and no doubt they did a lot to make Japan an industrial leader. With what principle did they operate? Make nothing but profit? No. Earn enough profit for the future of the company? Yes. It is by being more altruistic that all of us benefit. So how's the person next to you getting along?

koPas

Tumigil ang klase
Para sa isang kaganapan
Ang kapanganakan ng isang tao
Diyos para sa mga binyagan
Manloloko para sa iba
Maraming kabutihan
ang nagawa para sa kanya
Maraming kasamaan
ang nagawa sa ngalan niya
Hindi man ako naniniwala
sa kanya
Iginagalang ko ang paniniwala
ng iba sa kanya
Ang masasabi ko lang:
parehong ang mga
naniniwala at di-naniniwala
sa kanya ang naiiistres
Sa pagbili ng mga regalo
Sa pagpapanggap na sila
ay mabubuting mga tao
Sumisigla ang ekonomiya
Ang mayayaman at mauutak
ang nagkakamal ng kita
Busabos ang masa
Sadlak sa putik at basura
Alam kong hindi mo ako
mahal bilang kapantay
Mahal mo ako bilang alipin
Wala kang awa sa
aking katawang
tadtad na ng mga pasa
puro bakat na ng hirap
Sinunog mo na ang aking balat
Pagkatapos ay binabad mo pa ako
sa tubig-yelo
Kung sana ay may gaganti lang
para sa akin
Kung sana ay mayroon
lamang kahit isang titigil
lilingon upang kumalinga
Hindi lang paghanga
ang aking iaalay
kundi pati ang aking sarili
Handa akong sumugal
ng buhay para sa iyo
Papatay ako hanggang
wala ng gagambala
sa 'yo
Hilo man ako
ay nasa tama pa ring pag-iisip
Hindi ako papagitna
Kakampihan kita
sa bawat laban mo
Tayo ay magkatuwang
sa pag-usig at pagpaslang
Masama, masama na
ang tingin nila sa 'kin
Ngunit para sa aki'y
busilak pa rin 'to
Mahal ko ang aking bayan
at mananatili ito
Habambuhay

Ang taludtod sa itaas ay iniaalay ko sa mga koPas, mga mag-aaral na daralita at makabayan. Sila ay hindi lang nababagot sa Pasko kundi nagsasawa na rin sa kasalukuyang kalagayan ng lipunang Pilipino. Alam ko na alam niyong kailangang-kailangan natin ang isang malaking pagbabago na siyang gigimbal at sana'y tuluyang magpabagsak sa mga mapangdustang mga institusyon. Sa mga tulad ninyo ako kukumukuha ng lakas para harapin ang bagong umaga. Nawa'y magkaamuyan tayo ng intektwal na pag-iisip sakaling magtapat ang ating mga landas. Salamat sa inyong panahon sa pagbabasa ng aking gawa at sana nagustuhan ninyo ito. Sana ay napukaw ko ang inyong makabansang mga puso at kumilos kayo upang sa gayon ay hindi kailanman mamatay ang kabigha-bighaning mga sindi ng inyong mga kandila.

Thoughts

1. Mas madaling maging makakanan dahil mas madaling magpanggap na makakaliwa.
2. Walang lantern parade sa UP. Hindi pa rin ito tanggap ng mga tao.
3. Hindi pa ako graduate pero feel na feel ko na ang maglook back.
4. Nahiram ko ang CD ni JE na Neverwinter Nights. Masubukan nga.
5. Last X-mas party ng 03-bsbio, batch na kinabibilangan ko.
6. There's a part of me na ayaw pang umuwi.
7. This Christmas is so stale.
8. Human bingo--ayaw kong magpasign ng <3. style="font-style: italic;">Feel ko everything is so clear now. It's like the universe unfolded its entirety to me.
10. Mahal pala magmahal.

Home

Weird. I am in my 4th year in college and it is during this time that I want to go home the most. More than the computer games, it is with my family that I can be myself the most. So far, they have not rejected me. All they have done so far is to make me realize my mistakes and show me instances wherein I go overboard with my actions. :)

I want to go home early but I can't because of my thesis. I have accepted it long before but I wanted to say it here. Thesis...why? Because it is a requirement. So more than it being a requirement, I need to see what's beyond. Contribution to the wide scientific knowledge.

My eyes are almost always dry because of abuse. Dried and tired. Time management? I don't have it. Other than my family, I don't talk much except to JE. I like playing with my pet...cat, Anito/Dagul. Such a big kitten, he would get better.

Marathon: 9th of 15 parts

Getting slim; Fitness; Tripped @ bus stop

I will get slim. This is for me, for my fitness. This is for my current family, so that when I am healthy, I decide better for all of us. This is for my stint in Medicine, so that it will be better than what I have achieved in Biology.

November 28, 2006 (Tuesday). I hurried to school so that I would have time tracing my drawings in Bio 151 and also so that I will have enough time to study, just in case that we will have a quiz. I arrived at the Institute of Biology about 45 minutes ahead of time that day. Tracing my drawings to enhance them took about 30 minutes so I had about 15 minutes left to study. We had a short quiz (#1) but it was easy. It's about differentiating innate and acquired immunity. I should not have hurried my way to school after all.

Tripped. I tripped on the same Tuesday because of the aforementioned reasons. I was walking (striding) very fast, with my upper body to the right of the base of my body. and when I reached Macro, just when my long fast walking was about to end, I suddenly tripped. My body was not able to support itself anymore because of the large amount of strain I applied to it. I should not have done that (hurrying to school). It took me about 5 days to recover. The next day, Wednesday, I decided not to go to school (to weigh fish feeds for my thesis and to attend a seminar on malaria) because of my sore right foot. I should have decided to continue going because the next day, I was not allowed to weigh fish feeds because it was a holiday and I did not have any permit to work in IB (more details in Marathon: 2nd of 15 parts).

Looking back, it was all about making time to fix my things in the evening, even just before I hit the sack. It’s funny that my father now concurrently reminds me to walk like the World Pool Champion (2006), Ronnie Alcano. I answer him back with "Soft break."

Marathon: 8th of 15 parts

Channel 2 and my mother; Inocente De Ti

Channel 2 is what we watch at home. Correction: Channel 2 is what my mother watches at home. I am somewhat disappointed with my mother for her addiction to it. Previously, I understood her since we did not have cable TV. But now, I cannot and refuse to understand her anymore. So what does Joel have against the particular network?
1. Formula-based content (TV shows, commercials, news reporting).
2. Biased politically, always on the safe side.
3. Boring. Always the same things being shown fundamentally.
4. Makes fun of the ignorance of Filipinos, presses on their poverty (Wowowee).
5. Nonsense news.

On the bright side, there is Inocente De Ti. The lead female character is attractive. The story is basically about a poor woman who gets to be the heir of a millionaire through adoption. This allows her to become closer to the guy with which she has an infatuation. Stories like these fit people like me. For one, there are times when I am dreamy. In fact, I daydream and nightdream and nightmare a lot.

Marathon: 7th of 15 parts

Porn: when soft becomes better than hard; Proxy block; Messy room; Super typhoon Reming

Porn is "creative activity (writing or pictures or films, etc.) of no literary or artistic value other than to stimulate sexual desire" (WordNet). If so, then this computer that I am currently using has some of it. There was a time in my life that I grew tired of anime, so I searched the Net for the real thing. It is easy to search but because the computer connects to the Internet through proxy, most of my search queries are blocked. Although that may be the case, I am competent enough to be creative with respect to searching for lust pacifiers. Then time came when I was able to come across a site called *tv*****.com. Shit! Women do nothing but pose nude. I cannot explain nor understand why I was turned off. Women, real women of this world, must also look like the women of that site. Moreover, they will expectedly be less daring and bold (literally). Sex, whatever form of it, should almost always be pleasurable. Maybe I was disgusted by the sheer lack of class of those women. I don't want to sound like a chauvinist, but I think am surprised but what I saw. And so libido has substantially declined, exactly by what percentage, I do not know. I was more thrilled with animations. This is a good example where the truth hurts; it hurt me when I discovered the truth (whether it's by accident or not is not essential anymore).

My room is still messy and it will remain so. I will keep you updated when time comes that it suddenly becomes clean.

Super typhoon Reming did not pass Metro Manila. It was expected that the tropical depression take the same route that Milenyo took. The province of Albay was heavily damaged. Croplands, homes, and hearts of people were destroyed. More than a lifetime is needed for people to recover from such a tragedy.