I attempted to write about some nice things last semester but I was probably too busy. I may or may not choose to do so. Taking advantage of the limited time that I have for these things, I will make 'summaries' instead. They are:
1. Potential: what I have--I have plenty of potential.
2. Ecology: ultimate brain cell decimator--Ecology is the hardest subject ever in college. We did many things; so many and so much effort!
3. Authority: I hate--I like being free. I identify myself as an entrepreneur and a hacker.
4. Laziness--I am so lazy. I have to change because lazy people simply don't succeed in life.
5. Ideal/perfect thinker--I think so much and I always dream of attaining unity which is impossible. I give myself a hard time.
6. Games (Tekken) I will not play. I was addicted with playing Tekken 3 (SNES-emulated). This is in light that I should be busy with school work.
7. Nothing--Nothing will change anybody by leaps and bounds. This is probably very true.
8. Remnant--I don't remember the idea on this title.
Friday, December 22, 2006
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Marathon: 12th of 15 parts
GMA's faults from a leftist's perspective
You either like or hate a person. I have seen Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo (GMA) from a bright side in a previous post in this blog (Lakas ng Milenyo). Now it's time to see her from my dark, negative side. GMA is a devil, willing to propagate nothing but the gain of the already rich or her allies. For her, order is the most important. This is why she tries to water down all political rallies or demonstrations against her. But what the majority of Filipinos don't understand is that the basis for people to go against the current government is sound.
If you can't get along, that's fine. This is the reason why I am here; I'll try best to show the position of a leftist, and why GMA, the current president of the Republic of the Philippines, is the number one enemy of the Filipinos. The left is for equality. Everybody owns everything in a communist setting. There is no private ownership. Public ownership is the one and only type of ownership recognized by the state. All for one and one for all. From a democratic perspective, it looks as if there would be no drive for excellence or efficiency in a politically-left community. But when it is examined more closely, it can be done. When everybody in the state thinks as one, i.e. thinks and does things for the good of the state, then the multiplier and auspicious cycle goes on and on, like being in a state of perpetual motion. Accordingly, well-run communist countries have the inherent capacity for self-sufficiency, well-capable of surviving and even flourishing during a period of isolation.
GMA is bent on the maintenance of foreign hegemony over the Philippine markets. Nothing whatsoever has been done to stop or slow down the influx of imported goods to our islands. If this is not discontinued, then damage could be so great that getting up from this knockout since the time of colonizers be automatically be futile. Nationalism is an intrinsic characteristic of the left. It basks in nationalist propaganda on any kind of mass media.
GMA is crazy on anything about development. She matters little on the effects of the large-scale mining on Philippine mountains on the environment and public health. Safety is not prioritized over monetary profit. On the long run, if this goes unabated, we shall have spent more for public health and immeasurable losses in terms of human productivity over the meager earning from uncontrolled environmental exploitation in terms of magnitude and rate. The good of the many, of the majority should be first.
GMA is for the increase of taxes. This was done in many ways, with the EVAT being the most notorious. It is taxes on almost all goods from the previous rate of 10% to 12%. This was done even if the same amount of revenue could be covered if the Bureau of Internal Revenue (BIR) was efficient in tax collection and not blemished with red tape as it currently is. Taxes were increased even if extreme corruption in government offices is continuous. Plunder is unacceptable in any organization. Taxes should be well thought of and it should be sincere in addressing problems. It should not be done if there are other solutions. It should not be done just because it is convenient.
GMA cheats; she's a certified liar who has the stomach to make promises. She cheated in the election. Everybody knows. Some people know it but they accept it by rationalizing that Fernando Poe Jr. (FPJ) is a great actor but a ridiculous president. Some people think that they currently can do little about the situation, just like I. The Garci tapes revealed everything. I don't know what happened to our justice system. Why is GMA still in office? If she is not the deserving winner, then why is her ass still in the Malacañan Palace? If the justice system failed us, then we should have taken action to unseat her. We don't or shouldn't want an insincere leader running our country. Honesty is supreme in a society of equals.
Democracy betrayed itself in the Philippines. The greatest example was during GMA's stint.
You either like or hate a person. I have seen Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo (GMA) from a bright side in a previous post in this blog (Lakas ng Milenyo). Now it's time to see her from my dark, negative side. GMA is a devil, willing to propagate nothing but the gain of the already rich or her allies. For her, order is the most important. This is why she tries to water down all political rallies or demonstrations against her. But what the majority of Filipinos don't understand is that the basis for people to go against the current government is sound.
If you can't get along, that's fine. This is the reason why I am here; I'll try best to show the position of a leftist, and why GMA, the current president of the Republic of the Philippines, is the number one enemy of the Filipinos. The left is for equality. Everybody owns everything in a communist setting. There is no private ownership. Public ownership is the one and only type of ownership recognized by the state. All for one and one for all. From a democratic perspective, it looks as if there would be no drive for excellence or efficiency in a politically-left community. But when it is examined more closely, it can be done. When everybody in the state thinks as one, i.e. thinks and does things for the good of the state, then the multiplier and auspicious cycle goes on and on, like being in a state of perpetual motion. Accordingly, well-run communist countries have the inherent capacity for self-sufficiency, well-capable of surviving and even flourishing during a period of isolation.
GMA is bent on the maintenance of foreign hegemony over the Philippine markets. Nothing whatsoever has been done to stop or slow down the influx of imported goods to our islands. If this is not discontinued, then damage could be so great that getting up from this knockout since the time of colonizers be automatically be futile. Nationalism is an intrinsic characteristic of the left. It basks in nationalist propaganda on any kind of mass media.
GMA is crazy on anything about development. She matters little on the effects of the large-scale mining on Philippine mountains on the environment and public health. Safety is not prioritized over monetary profit. On the long run, if this goes unabated, we shall have spent more for public health and immeasurable losses in terms of human productivity over the meager earning from uncontrolled environmental exploitation in terms of magnitude and rate. The good of the many, of the majority should be first.
GMA is for the increase of taxes. This was done in many ways, with the EVAT being the most notorious. It is taxes on almost all goods from the previous rate of 10% to 12%. This was done even if the same amount of revenue could be covered if the Bureau of Internal Revenue (BIR) was efficient in tax collection and not blemished with red tape as it currently is. Taxes were increased even if extreme corruption in government offices is continuous. Plunder is unacceptable in any organization. Taxes should be well thought of and it should be sincere in addressing problems. It should not be done if there are other solutions. It should not be done just because it is convenient.
GMA cheats; she's a certified liar who has the stomach to make promises. She cheated in the election. Everybody knows. Some people know it but they accept it by rationalizing that Fernando Poe Jr. (FPJ) is a great actor but a ridiculous president. Some people think that they currently can do little about the situation, just like I. The Garci tapes revealed everything. I don't know what happened to our justice system. Why is GMA still in office? If she is not the deserving winner, then why is her ass still in the Malacañan Palace? If the justice system failed us, then we should have taken action to unseat her. We don't or shouldn't want an insincere leader running our country. Honesty is supreme in a society of equals.
Democracy betrayed itself in the Philippines. The greatest example was during GMA's stint.
Marathon: 11th of 15 parts
Christmas: An atheist's view
Christmas is the time of year when Christians celebrate the birth of Christ, their lord and savior, into this world. Atheists don't believe in any god, including God.
Pros:
1. Many days don't have classes. No school!
2. Gifts! We get to be given gifts.
3. The season allows being dreamy, taking off our clothes and being much closer to showing our real selves. We have an excuse for daydreaming, for fantasizing, for wishing that loved ones requited our affections.
4. Christmas bonus (13th month pay).
5. Time to pick on what we have left (leisurely activities).
6. People are significantly more generous.
7. We are so young. Whether or not we have enough energy left for the day/night, we have to remain awake.
8. Christmas shows. The fireworks.
9. Solemn. Silent.
10. Everybody instantly metamorphosed into angels.
Cons:
1. It is a holiday that we don't celebrate. Majority of Filipinos are Roman Catholics so we don't have any choice but to accept that such commemoration is taking place.
2. Gifts! We got to spend money to get other people gifts.
3. Rational thinking disallows us to enjoy a season of too much dreams.
4. The bonus is very small. Another way of thinking of it is the management only held onto our well deserved pays which should have been distributed all throughout the past year. This means receiving a monthly amount which is 1.0833x what we normally receive.
5. A chance to temporarily let go of serious stuff. Conditioning ourselves with the truth (again) unfortunately takes a long, long time.
6. So much food that it hurts. Time to get fat. Forget your plan to become fit.
7. Stress. Yes, stress!
8. Christmas problems. Deaths unique to this season. Lives lost which should have been spared only if there's no Christmas.
9. Noisy, self-righteous, hypocritical priests and their lousy sermons (for those who attend the (grand) 'night' masses).
10. Temporary goodness reverts to usual evilness when everything's over. What's with the bandwagon thing? It's too sweet just like Valentines. Deep inside, you recognize the artificiality. The feeling after a good meal only to find out you need to abandon your principles as payment for it. You want vomit but it's useless.
Christmas is the time of year when Christians celebrate the birth of Christ, their lord and savior, into this world. Atheists don't believe in any god, including God.
Pros:
1. Many days don't have classes. No school!
2. Gifts! We get to be given gifts.
3. The season allows being dreamy, taking off our clothes and being much closer to showing our real selves. We have an excuse for daydreaming, for fantasizing, for wishing that loved ones requited our affections.
4. Christmas bonus (13th month pay).
5. Time to pick on what we have left (leisurely activities).
6. People are significantly more generous.
7. We are so young. Whether or not we have enough energy left for the day/night, we have to remain awake.
8. Christmas shows. The fireworks.
9. Solemn. Silent.
10. Everybody instantly metamorphosed into angels.
Cons:
1. It is a holiday that we don't celebrate. Majority of Filipinos are Roman Catholics so we don't have any choice but to accept that such commemoration is taking place.
2. Gifts! We got to spend money to get other people gifts.
3. Rational thinking disallows us to enjoy a season of too much dreams.
4. The bonus is very small. Another way of thinking of it is the management only held onto our well deserved pays which should have been distributed all throughout the past year. This means receiving a monthly amount which is 1.0833x what we normally receive.
5. A chance to temporarily let go of serious stuff. Conditioning ourselves with the truth (again) unfortunately takes a long, long time.
6. So much food that it hurts. Time to get fat. Forget your plan to become fit.
7. Stress. Yes, stress!
8. Christmas problems. Deaths unique to this season. Lives lost which should have been spared only if there's no Christmas.
9. Noisy, self-righteous, hypocritical priests and their lousy sermons (for those who attend the (grand) 'night' masses).
10. Temporary goodness reverts to usual evilness when everything's over. What's with the bandwagon thing? It's too sweet just like Valentines. Deep inside, you recognize the artificiality. The feeling after a good meal only to find out you need to abandon your principles as payment for it. You want vomit but it's useless.
Marathon: 10th of 15 parts
Philippine industrialists; Why aren't there Matsushitas and Hondas here?
I do not know a single industrialist of the Philippines. What I want to express here is what I perceive to be their characteristics and the environment in which they operate.
Industry. What is it? It is the production and sale of goods for commercial purposes. It is a part of the economy composed of manufacturing enterprises (www.answers.com). The Philippine economy has been and still remains backward. Our past leaders have concentrated on industry to the point that they overlooked the importance of the fundamentals. Our country is agricultural and if we are to succeed in living better lives (characterized by equitable distribution of wealth), then we should focus on our agriculture.
What is bad about haphazard industrialization? Our nation became import-dependent and export-oriented. We became chained to this vicious cycle that it made things and circumstances more difficult for us to maneuver. Dollar reserves quickly dwindle for us to sustain industries which are hungry for imported raw materials. Thus, this is an expensive and imprudent exercise of how one should spend money. As for exports, we are forced to release goods and people, skilled and educated people, to maintain an intricate balance in our financial statement.
The bureaucracy is so ridden with graft and corruption. Businesses and economic enterprises aren't allowed to reach or at least approximate their best because the government and political situation is just not conducive for them to move about or even feel what will allow them to make profit quietly. This proves that with an evil and inefficient leadership, everybody suffers, except for a handful which benefits from the blood, sweat, and tears of others. Even if there is no perfect political system, being more sensitive to others and thinking ahead of the effect of every action to the whole picture and even the entire human history and civilization is enough to make an enlightened difference.
Matsushita and Honda. These two Japanese are industrialists and no doubt they did a lot to make Japan an industrial leader. With what principle did they operate? Make nothing but profit? No. Earn enough profit for the future of the company? Yes. It is by being more altruistic that all of us benefit. So how's the person next to you getting along?
I do not know a single industrialist of the Philippines. What I want to express here is what I perceive to be their characteristics and the environment in which they operate.
Industry. What is it? It is the production and sale of goods for commercial purposes. It is a part of the economy composed of manufacturing enterprises (www.answers.com). The Philippine economy has been and still remains backward. Our past leaders have concentrated on industry to the point that they overlooked the importance of the fundamentals. Our country is agricultural and if we are to succeed in living better lives (characterized by equitable distribution of wealth), then we should focus on our agriculture.
What is bad about haphazard industrialization? Our nation became import-dependent and export-oriented. We became chained to this vicious cycle that it made things and circumstances more difficult for us to maneuver. Dollar reserves quickly dwindle for us to sustain industries which are hungry for imported raw materials. Thus, this is an expensive and imprudent exercise of how one should spend money. As for exports, we are forced to release goods and people, skilled and educated people, to maintain an intricate balance in our financial statement.
The bureaucracy is so ridden with graft and corruption. Businesses and economic enterprises aren't allowed to reach or at least approximate their best because the government and political situation is just not conducive for them to move about or even feel what will allow them to make profit quietly. This proves that with an evil and inefficient leadership, everybody suffers, except for a handful which benefits from the blood, sweat, and tears of others. Even if there is no perfect political system, being more sensitive to others and thinking ahead of the effect of every action to the whole picture and even the entire human history and civilization is enough to make an enlightened difference.
Matsushita and Honda. These two Japanese are industrialists and no doubt they did a lot to make Japan an industrial leader. With what principle did they operate? Make nothing but profit? No. Earn enough profit for the future of the company? Yes. It is by being more altruistic that all of us benefit. So how's the person next to you getting along?
Friday, December 15, 2006
koPas
Tumigil ang klase
Para sa isang kaganapan
Ang kapanganakan ng isang tao
Diyos para sa mga binyagan
Manloloko para sa iba
Maraming kabutihan
ang nagawa para sa kanya
Maraming kasamaan
ang nagawa sa ngalan niya
Hindi man ako naniniwala
sa kanya
Iginagalang ko ang paniniwala
ng iba sa kanya
Ang masasabi ko lang:
parehong ang mga
naniniwala at di-naniniwala
sa kanya ang naiiistres
Sa pagbili ng mga regalo
Sa pagpapanggap na sila
ay mabubuting mga tao
Sumisigla ang ekonomiya
Ang mayayaman at mauutak
ang nagkakamal ng kita
Busabos ang masa
Sadlak sa putik at basura
Alam kong hindi mo ako
mahal bilang kapantay
Mahal mo ako bilang alipin
Wala kang awa sa
aking katawang
tadtad na ng mga pasa
puro bakat na ng hirap
Sinunog mo na ang aking balat
Pagkatapos ay binabad mo pa ako
sa tubig-yelo
Kung sana ay may gaganti lang
para sa akin
Kung sana ay mayroon
lamang kahit isang titigil
lilingon upang kumalinga
Hindi lang paghanga
ang aking iaalay
kundi pati ang aking sarili
Handa akong sumugal
ng buhay para sa iyo
Papatay ako hanggang
wala ng gagambala
sa 'yo
Hilo man ako
ay nasa tama pa ring pag-iisip
Hindi ako papagitna
Kakampihan kita
sa bawat laban mo
Tayo ay magkatuwang
sa pag-usig at pagpaslang
Masama, masama na
ang tingin nila sa 'kin
Ngunit para sa aki'y
busilak pa rin 'to
Mahal ko ang aking bayan
at mananatili ito
Habambuhay
Ang taludtod sa itaas ay iniaalay ko sa mga koPas, mga mag-aaral na daralita at makabayan. Sila ay hindi lang nababagot sa Pasko kundi nagsasawa na rin sa kasalukuyang kalagayan ng lipunang Pilipino. Alam ko na alam niyong kailangang-kailangan natin ang isang malaking pagbabago na siyang gigimbal at sana'y tuluyang magpabagsak sa mga mapangdustang mga institusyon. Sa mga tulad ninyo ako kukumukuha ng lakas para harapin ang bagong umaga. Nawa'y magkaamuyan tayo ng intektwal na pag-iisip sakaling magtapat ang ating mga landas. Salamat sa inyong panahon sa pagbabasa ng aking gawa at sana nagustuhan ninyo ito. Sana ay napukaw ko ang inyong makabansang mga puso at kumilos kayo upang sa gayon ay hindi kailanman mamatay ang kabigha-bighaning mga sindi ng inyong mga kandila.
Para sa isang kaganapan
Ang kapanganakan ng isang tao
Diyos para sa mga binyagan
Manloloko para sa iba
Maraming kabutihan
ang nagawa para sa kanya
Maraming kasamaan
ang nagawa sa ngalan niya
Hindi man ako naniniwala
sa kanya
Iginagalang ko ang paniniwala
ng iba sa kanya
Ang masasabi ko lang:
parehong ang mga
naniniwala at di-naniniwala
sa kanya ang naiiistres
Sa pagbili ng mga regalo
Sa pagpapanggap na sila
ay mabubuting mga tao
Sumisigla ang ekonomiya
Ang mayayaman at mauutak
ang nagkakamal ng kita
Busabos ang masa
Sadlak sa putik at basura
Alam kong hindi mo ako
mahal bilang kapantay
Mahal mo ako bilang alipin
Wala kang awa sa
aking katawang
tadtad na ng mga pasa
puro bakat na ng hirap
Sinunog mo na ang aking balat
Pagkatapos ay binabad mo pa ako
sa tubig-yelo
Kung sana ay may gaganti lang
para sa akin
Kung sana ay mayroon
lamang kahit isang titigil
lilingon upang kumalinga
Hindi lang paghanga
ang aking iaalay
kundi pati ang aking sarili
Handa akong sumugal
ng buhay para sa iyo
Papatay ako hanggang
wala ng gagambala
sa 'yo
Hilo man ako
ay nasa tama pa ring pag-iisip
Hindi ako papagitna
Kakampihan kita
sa bawat laban mo
Tayo ay magkatuwang
sa pag-usig at pagpaslang
Masama, masama na
ang tingin nila sa 'kin
Ngunit para sa aki'y
busilak pa rin 'to
Mahal ko ang aking bayan
at mananatili ito
Habambuhay
Ang taludtod sa itaas ay iniaalay ko sa mga koPas, mga mag-aaral na daralita at makabayan. Sila ay hindi lang nababagot sa Pasko kundi nagsasawa na rin sa kasalukuyang kalagayan ng lipunang Pilipino. Alam ko na alam niyong kailangang-kailangan natin ang isang malaking pagbabago na siyang gigimbal at sana'y tuluyang magpabagsak sa mga mapangdustang mga institusyon. Sa mga tulad ninyo ako kukumukuha ng lakas para harapin ang bagong umaga. Nawa'y magkaamuyan tayo ng intektwal na pag-iisip sakaling magtapat ang ating mga landas. Salamat sa inyong panahon sa pagbabasa ng aking gawa at sana nagustuhan ninyo ito. Sana ay napukaw ko ang inyong makabansang mga puso at kumilos kayo upang sa gayon ay hindi kailanman mamatay ang kabigha-bighaning mga sindi ng inyong mga kandila.
Thoughts
1. Mas madaling maging makakanan dahil mas madaling magpanggap na makakaliwa.
2. Walang lantern parade sa UP. Hindi pa rin ito tanggap ng mga tao.
3. Hindi pa ako graduate pero feel na feel ko na ang maglook back.
4. Nahiram ko ang CD ni JE na Neverwinter Nights. Masubukan nga.
5. Last X-mas party ng 03-bsbio, batch na kinabibilangan ko.
6. There's a part of me na ayaw pang umuwi.
7. This Christmas is so stale.
8. Human bingo--ayaw kong magpasign ng <3. style="font-style: italic;">Feel ko everything is so clear now. It's like the universe unfolded its entirety to me.
10. Mahal pala magmahal.
2. Walang lantern parade sa UP. Hindi pa rin ito tanggap ng mga tao.
3. Hindi pa ako graduate pero feel na feel ko na ang maglook back.
4. Nahiram ko ang CD ni JE na Neverwinter Nights. Masubukan nga.
5. Last X-mas party ng 03-bsbio, batch na kinabibilangan ko.
6. There's a part of me na ayaw pang umuwi.
7. This Christmas is so stale.
8. Human bingo--ayaw kong magpasign ng <3. style="font-style: italic;">Feel ko everything is so clear now. It's like the universe unfolded its entirety to me.
10. Mahal pala magmahal.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
Home
Weird. I am in my 4th year in college and it is during this time that I want to go home the most. More than the computer games, it is with my family that I can be myself the most. So far, they have not rejected me. All they have done so far is to make me realize my mistakes and show me instances wherein I go overboard with my actions. :)
I want to go home early but I can't because of my thesis. I have accepted it long before but I wanted to say it here. Thesis...why? Because it is a requirement. So more than it being a requirement, I need to see what's beyond. Contribution to the wide scientific knowledge.
My eyes are almost always dry because of abuse. Dried and tired. Time management? I don't have it. Other than my family, I don't talk much except to JE. I like playing with my pet...cat, Anito/Dagul. Such a big kitten, he would get better.
I want to go home early but I can't because of my thesis. I have accepted it long before but I wanted to say it here. Thesis...why? Because it is a requirement. So more than it being a requirement, I need to see what's beyond. Contribution to the wide scientific knowledge.
My eyes are almost always dry because of abuse. Dried and tired. Time management? I don't have it. Other than my family, I don't talk much except to JE. I like playing with my pet...cat, Anito/Dagul. Such a big kitten, he would get better.
Friday, December 08, 2006
Marathon: 9th of 15 parts
Getting slim; Fitness; Tripped @ bus stop
I will get slim. This is for me, for my fitness. This is for my current family, so that when I am healthy, I decide better for all of us. This is for my stint in Medicine, so that it will be better than what I have achieved in Biology.
November 28, 2006 (Tuesday). I hurried to school so that I would have time tracing my drawings in Bio 151 and also so that I will have enough time to study, just in case that we will have a quiz. I arrived at the Institute of Biology about 45 minutes ahead of time that day. Tracing my drawings to enhance them took about 30 minutes so I had about 15 minutes left to study. We had a short quiz (#1) but it was easy. It's about differentiating innate and acquired immunity. I should not have hurried my way to school after all.
Tripped. I tripped on the same Tuesday because of the aforementioned reasons. I was walking (striding) very fast, with my upper body to the right of the base of my body. and when I reached Macro, just when my long fast walking was about to end, I suddenly tripped. My body was not able to support itself anymore because of the large amount of strain I applied to it. I should not have done that (hurrying to school). It took me about 5 days to recover. The next day, Wednesday, I decided not to go to school (to weigh fish feeds for my thesis and to attend a seminar on malaria) because of my sore right foot. I should have decided to continue going because the next day, I was not allowed to weigh fish feeds because it was a holiday and I did not have any permit to work in IB (more details in Marathon: 2nd of 15 parts).
Looking back, it was all about making time to fix my things in the evening, even just before I hit the sack. It’s funny that my father now concurrently reminds me to walk like the World Pool Champion (2006), Ronnie Alcano. I answer him back with "Soft break."
I will get slim. This is for me, for my fitness. This is for my current family, so that when I am healthy, I decide better for all of us. This is for my stint in Medicine, so that it will be better than what I have achieved in Biology.
November 28, 2006 (Tuesday). I hurried to school so that I would have time tracing my drawings in Bio 151 and also so that I will have enough time to study, just in case that we will have a quiz. I arrived at the Institute of Biology about 45 minutes ahead of time that day. Tracing my drawings to enhance them took about 30 minutes so I had about 15 minutes left to study. We had a short quiz (#1) but it was easy. It's about differentiating innate and acquired immunity. I should not have hurried my way to school after all.
Tripped. I tripped on the same Tuesday because of the aforementioned reasons. I was walking (striding) very fast, with my upper body to the right of the base of my body. and when I reached Macro, just when my long fast walking was about to end, I suddenly tripped. My body was not able to support itself anymore because of the large amount of strain I applied to it. I should not have done that (hurrying to school). It took me about 5 days to recover. The next day, Wednesday, I decided not to go to school (to weigh fish feeds for my thesis and to attend a seminar on malaria) because of my sore right foot. I should have decided to continue going because the next day, I was not allowed to weigh fish feeds because it was a holiday and I did not have any permit to work in IB (more details in Marathon: 2nd of 15 parts).
Looking back, it was all about making time to fix my things in the evening, even just before I hit the sack. It’s funny that my father now concurrently reminds me to walk like the World Pool Champion (2006), Ronnie Alcano. I answer him back with "Soft break."
Marathon: 8th of 15 parts
Channel 2 and my mother; Inocente De Ti
Channel 2 is what we watch at home. Correction: Channel 2 is what my mother watches at home. I am somewhat disappointed with my mother for her addiction to it. Previously, I understood her since we did not have cable TV. But now, I cannot and refuse to understand her anymore. So what does Joel have against the particular network?
1. Formula-based content (TV shows, commercials, news reporting).
2. Biased politically, always on the safe side.
3. Boring. Always the same things being shown fundamentally.
4. Makes fun of the ignorance of Filipinos, presses on their poverty (Wowowee).
5. Nonsense news.
On the bright side, there is Inocente De Ti. The lead female character is attractive. The story is basically about a poor woman who gets to be the heir of a millionaire through adoption. This allows her to become closer to the guy with which she has an infatuation. Stories like these fit people like me. For one, there are times when I am dreamy. In fact, I daydream and nightdream and nightmare a lot.
Channel 2 is what we watch at home. Correction: Channel 2 is what my mother watches at home. I am somewhat disappointed with my mother for her addiction to it. Previously, I understood her since we did not have cable TV. But now, I cannot and refuse to understand her anymore. So what does Joel have against the particular network?
1. Formula-based content (TV shows, commercials, news reporting).
2. Biased politically, always on the safe side.
3. Boring. Always the same things being shown fundamentally.
4. Makes fun of the ignorance of Filipinos, presses on their poverty (Wowowee).
5. Nonsense news.
On the bright side, there is Inocente De Ti. The lead female character is attractive. The story is basically about a poor woman who gets to be the heir of a millionaire through adoption. This allows her to become closer to the guy with which she has an infatuation. Stories like these fit people like me. For one, there are times when I am dreamy. In fact, I daydream and nightdream and nightmare a lot.
Marathon: 7th of 15 parts
Porn: when soft becomes better than hard; Proxy block; Messy room; Super typhoon Reming
Porn is "creative activity (writing or pictures or films, etc.) of no literary or artistic value other than to stimulate sexual desire" (WordNet). If so, then this computer that I am currently using has some of it. There was a time in my life that I grew tired of anime, so I searched the Net for the real thing. It is easy to search but because the computer connects to the Internet through proxy, most of my search queries are blocked. Although that may be the case, I am competent enough to be creative with respect to searching for lust pacifiers. Then time came when I was able to come across a site called *tv*****.com. Shit! Women do nothing but pose nude. I cannot explain nor understand why I was turned off. Women, real women of this world, must also look like the women of that site. Moreover, they will expectedly be less daring and bold (literally). Sex, whatever form of it, should almost always be pleasurable. Maybe I was disgusted by the sheer lack of class of those women. I don't want to sound like a chauvinist, but I think am surprised but what I saw. And so libido has substantially declined, exactly by what percentage, I do not know. I was more thrilled with animations. This is a good example where the truth hurts; it hurt me when I discovered the truth (whether it's by accident or not is not essential anymore).
My room is still messy and it will remain so. I will keep you updated when time comes that it suddenly becomes clean.
Super typhoon Reming did not pass Metro Manila. It was expected that the tropical depression take the same route that Milenyo took. The province of Albay was heavily damaged. Croplands, homes, and hearts of people were destroyed. More than a lifetime is needed for people to recover from such a tragedy.
Porn is "creative activity (writing or pictures or films, etc.) of no literary or artistic value other than to stimulate sexual desire" (WordNet). If so, then this computer that I am currently using has some of it. There was a time in my life that I grew tired of anime, so I searched the Net for the real thing. It is easy to search but because the computer connects to the Internet through proxy, most of my search queries are blocked. Although that may be the case, I am competent enough to be creative with respect to searching for lust pacifiers. Then time came when I was able to come across a site called *tv*****.com. Shit! Women do nothing but pose nude. I cannot explain nor understand why I was turned off. Women, real women of this world, must also look like the women of that site. Moreover, they will expectedly be less daring and bold (literally). Sex, whatever form of it, should almost always be pleasurable. Maybe I was disgusted by the sheer lack of class of those women. I don't want to sound like a chauvinist, but I think am surprised but what I saw. And so libido has substantially declined, exactly by what percentage, I do not know. I was more thrilled with animations. This is a good example where the truth hurts; it hurt me when I discovered the truth (whether it's by accident or not is not essential anymore).
My room is still messy and it will remain so. I will keep you updated when time comes that it suddenly becomes clean.
Super typhoon Reming did not pass Metro Manila. It was expected that the tropical depression take the same route that Milenyo took. The province of Albay was heavily damaged. Croplands, homes, and hearts of people were destroyed. More than a lifetime is needed for people to recover from such a tragedy.
Monday, December 04, 2006
Marathon: 6th of 15 parts
Mensa; Missed chances to rake-in awards in college; Destiny: physician
Simply put, Mensa is an international organization of the extremely mentally-gifted. Membership is exclusive to those who have an Intelligence Quotient (IQ) of at least 135. I want to join it and I think I have what it takes to be a member. I'll try taking their test in 2 months time. If not, then it would probably be during the vacation (after graduation)!
I was a fool not to study with my best ability during these college years. I was university scholar once and college scholar twice. If only the awards came in much earlier than the middle of the second semester of my freshman year, then I would have definitely strived better, worked my ass off more to land it farther. There were many distractions and I would not mention them here for the fear of hurting people, both around and far from me.
People say, parents and instructors alike, that a BS Biology graduate would have no other option besides taking Medicine. I do not believe them. Even so, I have a hint that true enough; career options for the graduates are limited. Why do I say destined? We'll, I really have no interest in Biology and yet I believed my mother. I placed BS Biology as my first choice in the UPCAT form. I resented it. I have had thoughts of shifting to other courses which are far from the natural sciences. I was much more comfortable with mathematics and the social sciences. Biology was my waterloo in high school and even way back in primary school. Years passed and I could say that whether I liked it or not, I was committing myself to becoming a biologist. See my mistake here? I did not fight for what I wanted. I just said yes to what they wanted me to become, not considering my feelings. It was late when I was able to make them realize that I hate biology, or at least I was not good in it. For sure, I would not shine in that course. So why did I hate biology?
1. Memorization.
2. Memorization.
3. Memorization.
4. Looks like there's no point.
5. Common sense usually does not work here.
6. It's very hard to get the correct answers by not studying (plain guesswork). I must have been very lucky to reach this far.
Nevertheless, I am looking forward to Medicine. I hope it will not be as boring as Biology.
Simply put, Mensa is an international organization of the extremely mentally-gifted. Membership is exclusive to those who have an Intelligence Quotient (IQ) of at least 135. I want to join it and I think I have what it takes to be a member. I'll try taking their test in 2 months time. If not, then it would probably be during the vacation (after graduation)!
I was a fool not to study with my best ability during these college years. I was university scholar once and college scholar twice. If only the awards came in much earlier than the middle of the second semester of my freshman year, then I would have definitely strived better, worked my ass off more to land it farther. There were many distractions and I would not mention them here for the fear of hurting people, both around and far from me.
People say, parents and instructors alike, that a BS Biology graduate would have no other option besides taking Medicine. I do not believe them. Even so, I have a hint that true enough; career options for the graduates are limited. Why do I say destined? We'll, I really have no interest in Biology and yet I believed my mother. I placed BS Biology as my first choice in the UPCAT form. I resented it. I have had thoughts of shifting to other courses which are far from the natural sciences. I was much more comfortable with mathematics and the social sciences. Biology was my waterloo in high school and even way back in primary school. Years passed and I could say that whether I liked it or not, I was committing myself to becoming a biologist. See my mistake here? I did not fight for what I wanted. I just said yes to what they wanted me to become, not considering my feelings. It was late when I was able to make them realize that I hate biology, or at least I was not good in it. For sure, I would not shine in that course. So why did I hate biology?
1. Memorization.
2. Memorization.
3. Memorization.
4. Looks like there's no point.
5. Common sense usually does not work here.
6. It's very hard to get the correct answers by not studying (plain guesswork). I must have been very lucky to reach this far.
Nevertheless, I am looking forward to Medicine. I hope it will not be as boring as Biology.
Marathon: 5th of 15 parts
Google-Fu
As I understand the term, Google-Fu refers to the skill/ability to find what one needs using Google, the most famous Internet search engine (http://www.langmaker.com/db/Eng_googlefu.htm). Yes, most of us know how to use Google, especially those who are reading this! But to optimize the tool, we should know how it works; we should use advanced functions and queries, so as to pinpoint/narrow the search results (for greater precision and accuracy).
If you are not a born natural (not good) at what you currently do, a good Google-Fu might just supplement your skills and knowledge. If you don't know, most of the assignments I did in my 3rd and 4th years in college involved using the Internet. I know that many of us will enjoy the benefits of being able to find what we need online. For more information, check out http://www.googleguide.com/ and http://www.codinghorror.com/blog/archives/000296.html.
As I understand the term, Google-Fu refers to the skill/ability to find what one needs using Google, the most famous Internet search engine (http://www.langmaker.com/db/Eng_googlefu.htm). Yes, most of us know how to use Google, especially those who are reading this! But to optimize the tool, we should know how it works; we should use advanced functions and queries, so as to pinpoint/narrow the search results (for greater precision and accuracy).
If you are not a born natural (not good) at what you currently do, a good Google-Fu might just supplement your skills and knowledge. If you don't know, most of the assignments I did in my 3rd and 4th years in college involved using the Internet. I know that many of us will enjoy the benefits of being able to find what we need online. For more information, check out http://www.googleguide.com/ and http://www.codinghorror.com/blog/archives/000296.html.
Marathon: 4th of 15 parts
Poetry; Blogging: I want to remember
My blog started as a collection of personal poems; all of them have some reference to an object of infatuation (http://privatejoel.blogspot.com/). More than words contained therein lay ideas and emotions I felt strongly about during particular years of my life. As it is hard to hold on to them in my memory (as I worry much about other things), I unconsciously decided that it would be convenient to have a blog. And so I continued what I started and this blog (http://rationaljoel.blogspot.com/) would be the continuation of the first one. Most of the essays are based on my experiences, while the others contain my opinions on issues which I deemed important.
"I want to remember." That is my long term goal. I want to remember them all, if not all of the details then parts of them would be fine. Joy, laughter, bliss and sadness, sorrow, fear. "What was I thinking?" and "How did my mind operate?" The blogs would answer these questions in the future, with clarity. Only I could delete it (them), other than a crafty hacker or a stealthy traitor. That's all.
My blog started as a collection of personal poems; all of them have some reference to an object of infatuation (http://privatejoel.blogspot.com/). More than words contained therein lay ideas and emotions I felt strongly about during particular years of my life. As it is hard to hold on to them in my memory (as I worry much about other things), I unconsciously decided that it would be convenient to have a blog. And so I continued what I started and this blog (http://rationaljoel.blogspot.com/) would be the continuation of the first one. Most of the essays are based on my experiences, while the others contain my opinions on issues which I deemed important.
"I want to remember." That is my long term goal. I want to remember them all, if not all of the details then parts of them would be fine. Joy, laughter, bliss and sadness, sorrow, fear. "What was I thinking?" and "How did my mind operate?" The blogs would answer these questions in the future, with clarity. Only I could delete it (them), other than a crafty hacker or a stealthy traitor. That's all.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
Marathon: 3rd of 15 parts
Toothworks and the toothsmith; Saliva spills
My teeth has been adjusted for at least 2 years. Wisdom teeth, along with other strategically located teeth were removed due to lack of space. This has improved the look of my teeth set substantially. Before, as my mother has noted, my mouth was always open. Even if she has only just reminded me to keep my mouth closed, I would open in the instant that I forgot the instruction. The effort should be conscious so as to be effective. Cracked teeth were also improved by pasta (not the Italian food). Recently, my braces were replaced with retainers.
The toothsmith is EVM. She's skilled. Yeah right. She has been a friend of my mother for a long time. They were like so before my birth, maybe even before my parents were married to one another. I'd call her more of an associate rather than a friend of my mother. She charges exorbitant fees on the toothworks. Shucks! If only I could reveal the amount my parents spent on my teeth. (We are not rich and could have spent the money on more practical things. But my father and mother value their children having good smiles. This makes me guilty every time I do not smile. I say to myself: "Joel, you should maximize your teeth by smiling.") I feel better, just a little better, now that my face looks nicer because of my improved bite.
Last Tuesday, I was eager at removing the scales of betilya, a fish. I was using my nails in removing the scales without any gloves, almost one by one, with the help of AMF of course. In the process, my saliva spilled and dropped to my pants. (I was sitting on the table of our group's workstation with my legs crossed; I in an Indian sit position.) Most of my group mates saw it and I was embarrassed, but not too much because the incident happened during a string of fun stories and chat. I would have wanted to tell them that because I was new at wearing my retainers, so I wasn't able to control my saliva as much as I would have wanted to. The day ended with me not learning much, my hands full of the fishy smell of fish. But the lab class was sure fun!
My teeth has been adjusted for at least 2 years. Wisdom teeth, along with other strategically located teeth were removed due to lack of space. This has improved the look of my teeth set substantially. Before, as my mother has noted, my mouth was always open. Even if she has only just reminded me to keep my mouth closed, I would open in the instant that I forgot the instruction. The effort should be conscious so as to be effective. Cracked teeth were also improved by pasta (not the Italian food). Recently, my braces were replaced with retainers.
The toothsmith is EVM. She's skilled. Yeah right. She has been a friend of my mother for a long time. They were like so before my birth, maybe even before my parents were married to one another. I'd call her more of an associate rather than a friend of my mother. She charges exorbitant fees on the toothworks. Shucks! If only I could reveal the amount my parents spent on my teeth. (We are not rich and could have spent the money on more practical things. But my father and mother value their children having good smiles. This makes me guilty every time I do not smile. I say to myself: "Joel, you should maximize your teeth by smiling.") I feel better, just a little better, now that my face looks nicer because of my improved bite.
Last Tuesday, I was eager at removing the scales of betilya, a fish. I was using my nails in removing the scales without any gloves, almost one by one, with the help of AMF of course. In the process, my saliva spilled and dropped to my pants. (I was sitting on the table of our group's workstation with my legs crossed; I in an Indian sit position.) Most of my group mates saw it and I was embarrassed, but not too much because the incident happened during a string of fun stories and chat. I would have wanted to tell them that because I was new at wearing my retainers, so I wasn't able to control my saliva as much as I would have wanted to. The day ended with me not learning much, my hands full of the fishy smell of fish. But the lab class was sure fun!
Marathon: 2nd of 15 parts
Thesis, adviser, and co-advisees; Ichthyology and immunology; No permit, brown-out: how they almost destroyed it; Death of fishes; The hammer and animal rights; Tabbada thesis
My thesis is about fish--Oreochromis niloticus, more commonly known as tilapia. I used Vitamin C as immunostimulant (something which boost the immune system). After 30 days of control and vitamin C treatments of 48 fish, all of them will be vanquished (killed). And that would be this coming Thursday. Tests such as cell counts (of particular cells) of the head kidneys and blood will be conducted. Phagocytosis of yeast would be cute. My thesis adviser is ESC. She's good, brilliant, and nice. I'd say she's the perfect thesis adviser. Although I am one of her first advisees at IB, she's quickly making progress. She's always there to update us, ask about how's the fish. I wish more of my instructors in the past, especially in my first 2 years in college were like her. (Unlike AJ who was my Chem 16 lab instructor. If only she knew how much a negative influence she made on me. That was my first chemistry course and she made me hate chemistry to the bone. Nasty. Ask me for more details about the first lab report. More details revealed if only you'd inquire about it.) My co-advisees are KS, JP, and PL. I would like to express my gratitude to KS for feeding my fish. We alternate with the feeding. I am along this last week of feeding. Sigh. That makes me go to school everyday, even on both days of weekends!
Last Thursday, there was I came to school to feed my fish. Unfortunately, there was no class and I can't work according to the lady guard and Kuya Noel at IB main. In just a few minutes, electricity was off. Sweat. Sweat covered my body and I rushed back to Animal House 2 where the fish were, looking for the assistance of my dear thesis adviser. She went there and was able to convince Kuya Noel to let me work for the day. And so I was allowed to weigh fish feed with a balance (analog) which does not need electricity for its operation. I weighed 6 sets x 12 pcs. = 72 of ~ 2.5 g fish feed. That took me about 2 hours. When I finished (about 12:45 P.M.), I hurried back to the lab to feed my fish. Alas, one more fish died because of cannibalism at tank 2. (When I went to the lab at about 10 A.M., only 1 fish was dead at tank 5.) So why did I weigh a lot before feeding my fish? It's because I do not want to take the risk again of not being allowed to weigh feeds at IB 116. I planned to go school during Wednesday to weigh the feeds and attend the seminar on malaria. I didn't push through because of my painful right foot, which will be given more attention in this blog at Tripped @ bus stop. Enough of the sadness.
Ichthyology and immunology. That would be Bio 119 and Bio 151. Perfect for my thesis on Fish Immunobiology. What a coincidence! Along with the seminar (Bio 196), I am primed for this semester as a scientist. I guess this welcome into to the pure science world would not last long because of my incoming stint at medicine. Worth of mention is my instructor at Bio 151, WLR, which was a choice as thesis adviser. Recalling, he rejected me since he was already handling 7 advisees at that time. You, yes you, who are reading this may be one of them. But I do not hold a grudge against you since all regarding my thesis is flowing smoothly.
It saddens me whenever a test subject dies, even if they are fish. I consider them different from those which I have eaten. Something's just special about them. Basically, I do not want them to die because of the effect on the statistics and the veracity of my future conclusions regarding my undergraduate thesis. I wanted them to live forever. And that was left as an idea. When I came back to the lab during the afternoon. I saw KS's fish--dead. And it was a good half of them. They were placed on a pale green basin after blood smear were done from them. How they were killed? I'll give a leading clue with 2 words: brutally, hammer! This is a clear violation of AR, which I doubt is being upheld in the Philippines. If clear violations of HR are seen and action is not taken against them, how much more on the AR of fish? This is okay here, in the Philippines!
The Tabbada thesis. How I wish I knew about it earlier. It would be fun doing it in a thesis. Plant stimulation by touch. It is somewhat related to masturbation. The correlation became more evident when our professor, RAT, demonstrated with his hand movements. Simple and happy thesis. Simply funny.
My thesis is about fish--Oreochromis niloticus, more commonly known as tilapia. I used Vitamin C as immunostimulant (something which boost the immune system). After 30 days of control and vitamin C treatments of 48 fish, all of them will be vanquished (killed). And that would be this coming Thursday. Tests such as cell counts (of particular cells) of the head kidneys and blood will be conducted. Phagocytosis of yeast would be cute. My thesis adviser is ESC. She's good, brilliant, and nice. I'd say she's the perfect thesis adviser. Although I am one of her first advisees at IB, she's quickly making progress. She's always there to update us, ask about how's the fish. I wish more of my instructors in the past, especially in my first 2 years in college were like her. (Unlike AJ who was my Chem 16 lab instructor. If only she knew how much a negative influence she made on me. That was my first chemistry course and she made me hate chemistry to the bone. Nasty. Ask me for more details about the first lab report. More details revealed if only you'd inquire about it.) My co-advisees are KS, JP, and PL. I would like to express my gratitude to KS for feeding my fish. We alternate with the feeding. I am along this last week of feeding. Sigh. That makes me go to school everyday, even on both days of weekends!
Last Thursday, there was I came to school to feed my fish. Unfortunately, there was no class and I can't work according to the lady guard and Kuya Noel at IB main. In just a few minutes, electricity was off. Sweat. Sweat covered my body and I rushed back to Animal House 2 where the fish were, looking for the assistance of my dear thesis adviser. She went there and was able to convince Kuya Noel to let me work for the day. And so I was allowed to weigh fish feed with a balance (analog) which does not need electricity for its operation. I weighed 6 sets x 12 pcs. = 72 of ~ 2.5 g fish feed. That took me about 2 hours. When I finished (about 12:45 P.M.), I hurried back to the lab to feed my fish. Alas, one more fish died because of cannibalism at tank 2. (When I went to the lab at about 10 A.M., only 1 fish was dead at tank 5.) So why did I weigh a lot before feeding my fish? It's because I do not want to take the risk again of not being allowed to weigh feeds at IB 116. I planned to go school during Wednesday to weigh the feeds and attend the seminar on malaria. I didn't push through because of my painful right foot, which will be given more attention in this blog at Tripped @ bus stop. Enough of the sadness.
Ichthyology and immunology. That would be Bio 119 and Bio 151. Perfect for my thesis on Fish Immunobiology. What a coincidence! Along with the seminar (Bio 196), I am primed for this semester as a scientist. I guess this welcome into to the pure science world would not last long because of my incoming stint at medicine. Worth of mention is my instructor at Bio 151, WLR, which was a choice as thesis adviser. Recalling, he rejected me since he was already handling 7 advisees at that time. You, yes you, who are reading this may be one of them. But I do not hold a grudge against you since all regarding my thesis is flowing smoothly.
It saddens me whenever a test subject dies, even if they are fish. I consider them different from those which I have eaten. Something's just special about them. Basically, I do not want them to die because of the effect on the statistics and the veracity of my future conclusions regarding my undergraduate thesis. I wanted them to live forever. And that was left as an idea. When I came back to the lab during the afternoon. I saw KS's fish--dead. And it was a good half of them. They were placed on a pale green basin after blood smear were done from them. How they were killed? I'll give a leading clue with 2 words: brutally, hammer! This is a clear violation of AR, which I doubt is being upheld in the Philippines. If clear violations of HR are seen and action is not taken against them, how much more on the AR of fish? This is okay here, in the Philippines!
The Tabbada thesis. How I wish I knew about it earlier. It would be fun doing it in a thesis. Plant stimulation by touch. It is somewhat related to masturbation. The correlation became more evident when our professor, RAT, demonstrated with his hand movements. Simple and happy thesis. Simply funny.
Marathon: 1st of 15 parts
'Nicole' and system of (in)justice in the Philippines; Foreigners in the country
'Nicole' is the rape victim in the recent constraint in the century-old relation between the Philippines and the United States of America. She's a Filipino. Raped by US servicemen. More than 1 year has elapsed since the event occurred at press time.
Tomorrow, the judgment will be at hand. And from the looks of it, I have a strong feeling that the perpetuators will be adjudged innocent. Just because they are American citizens and the victim was Filipino. As history tells us, the Philippines was a US colony from about 1899-1946. Filipino politicians who advanced their career, most notably Philippine presidents, all supported American interests in this country. This makes American rape in and of the Philippines not new. On as for our side, we, more accurately our forefathers, allowed the rapings to occur. We have shown little sympathy to our countrymen, women, elders, and children. And what did we get in return? Money? Military weapons and ammunition? What most of us don't realize is most of that money came from our land. What do I have to support this claim? As far back as the period wherein we were a slave of the US empire, they freely took raw materials, our natural resources to feed the needs of their vast army and to cater to the taste of their people. And during the time of US imperialism (from the time of Philippine Independence of 1946-present), they cheaply get resources from us for their surplus products which are theoretically as good as waste. When we get everything that they took from us, include reasonable interest with it, then truth comes out: they do not donate anything which is really theirs, it all came from us! This means that what they are using against us is from us. You should see the vicious cycle here. What will become of our children and of the next generations of Filipinos? Drones? Slaves? For sure I do not want that to happen, but I do not know of your opinion.
Raul Gonzales is the current Secretary of the Department of Injustice. This is another fact that makes me feel that the impending decision will go in favor of the Amboys. He may be intelligent but he talks a lot of trash in the mass media, wasting all of our precious time, listening to a 'wise' man. I think if he ever had the balls to do it, which I am sure he has little of it, that he would sell out the case in favor of the Americans, for their 'grants' and 'kindness'. He is more interested in keeping the status of our relations with the offsprings of the sun. It is in this philosophy that I strongly disagree. What is the sense of development if in the process we will have stepped upon our own people, of our own blood and culture, of our own soul? If he insists on it, then I think he should not remain an official of the Republic of the Philippines because all he does is of disservice to the Filipino people.
Foreigners in the Philippines do not seem to be foreigners at all. First, they are more Filipino than most true Filipinos. They can afford to live relatively more comfortable and affluent lives. Filipinos treat foreigners better than their countrymen. I hate the colonial mentality of Filipinos even if I have thoughts of such myself. The Americans are here to exploit, make money, and then leave. They are just testing their patience with the dilapidated surroundings. This makes the Chinese a little better than them. They have long been here, engaged in trade, done this, done that. My teacher in high school told us in our Economics class that they served as the oil of the Philippine economy during the Spanish rule. Virtually all of the trade goods from Manila to Acapulco are Chinese. 'You have to give them credit.' I did not inquire about that. That is how much I believe in and respect my instructor. He, along with my high grades of course, made me love Economics. As with all of the other nationalities, they are all the same. Look at the Indians--they are here for 5-6.
As I am going take Medicine right after college just about to any medical school which accepts me and which my family can afford. I have plans of working in the US just to earn more. But if ever I don't make it, I would not take it against myself. I'll think of it as a bonus.
Update: Daniel Smith was convicted. The 3 others were acquitted.
'Nicole' is the rape victim in the recent constraint in the century-old relation between the Philippines and the United States of America. She's a Filipino. Raped by US servicemen. More than 1 year has elapsed since the event occurred at press time.
Tomorrow, the judgment will be at hand. And from the looks of it, I have a strong feeling that the perpetuators will be adjudged innocent. Just because they are American citizens and the victim was Filipino. As history tells us, the Philippines was a US colony from about 1899-1946. Filipino politicians who advanced their career, most notably Philippine presidents, all supported American interests in this country. This makes American rape in and of the Philippines not new. On as for our side, we, more accurately our forefathers, allowed the rapings to occur. We have shown little sympathy to our countrymen, women, elders, and children. And what did we get in return? Money? Military weapons and ammunition? What most of us don't realize is most of that money came from our land. What do I have to support this claim? As far back as the period wherein we were a slave of the US empire, they freely took raw materials, our natural resources to feed the needs of their vast army and to cater to the taste of their people. And during the time of US imperialism (from the time of Philippine Independence of 1946-present), they cheaply get resources from us for their surplus products which are theoretically as good as waste. When we get everything that they took from us, include reasonable interest with it, then truth comes out: they do not donate anything which is really theirs, it all came from us! This means that what they are using against us is from us. You should see the vicious cycle here. What will become of our children and of the next generations of Filipinos? Drones? Slaves? For sure I do not want that to happen, but I do not know of your opinion.
Raul Gonzales is the current Secretary of the Department of Injustice. This is another fact that makes me feel that the impending decision will go in favor of the Amboys. He may be intelligent but he talks a lot of trash in the mass media, wasting all of our precious time, listening to a 'wise' man. I think if he ever had the balls to do it, which I am sure he has little of it, that he would sell out the case in favor of the Americans, for their 'grants' and 'kindness'. He is more interested in keeping the status of our relations with the offsprings of the sun. It is in this philosophy that I strongly disagree. What is the sense of development if in the process we will have stepped upon our own people, of our own blood and culture, of our own soul? If he insists on it, then I think he should not remain an official of the Republic of the Philippines because all he does is of disservice to the Filipino people.
Foreigners in the Philippines do not seem to be foreigners at all. First, they are more Filipino than most true Filipinos. They can afford to live relatively more comfortable and affluent lives. Filipinos treat foreigners better than their countrymen. I hate the colonial mentality of Filipinos even if I have thoughts of such myself. The Americans are here to exploit, make money, and then leave. They are just testing their patience with the dilapidated surroundings. This makes the Chinese a little better than them. They have long been here, engaged in trade, done this, done that. My teacher in high school told us in our Economics class that they served as the oil of the Philippine economy during the Spanish rule. Virtually all of the trade goods from Manila to Acapulco are Chinese. 'You have to give them credit.' I did not inquire about that. That is how much I believe in and respect my instructor. He, along with my high grades of course, made me love Economics. As with all of the other nationalities, they are all the same. Look at the Indians--they are here for 5-6.
As I am going take Medicine right after college just about to any medical school which accepts me and which my family can afford. I have plans of working in the US just to earn more. But if ever I don't make it, I would not take it against myself. I'll think of it as a bonus.
Update: Daniel Smith was convicted. The 3 others were acquitted.
Friday, December 01, 2006
Write
Write? Right!
I want to write on the following topics/ideas:
1. 'Nicole' and system of (in)justice in the Philippines; Foreigners in the country
2. Thesis, adviser, and co-advisees; Immunology and ichthyology; No permit, brown-out: how they almost destroyed it; Death of fishes; The hammer and animal rights; Tabbada thesis
3. Toothworks and the toothsmith; Saliva spills
4. Poetry; Blogging: I want to remember
5. Google-Fu
6. Mensa; Missed chances to rake-in awards in college; Destiny: physician
7. Porn: when soft becomes better than hard; Messy room; Super typhoon Reming
8. Channel 2 and my mother; Inocente De Ti
9. Getting slim; Fitness; Tripped @ bus stop
10. Philippine industrialists; Why aren't there Matsushitas and Hondas here?
11. Christmas: An atheist's view
12. GMA's faults from a leftist's perspective
13. PI 100: why Christians, especially Catholics shouldn't take it
14. Joel's what ifs?
15. The difference a good first makes
I want to write on the following topics/ideas:
1. 'Nicole' and system of (in)justice in the Philippines; Foreigners in the country
2. Thesis, adviser, and co-advisees; Immunology and ichthyology; No permit, brown-out: how they almost destroyed it; Death of fishes; The hammer and animal rights; Tabbada thesis
3. Toothworks and the toothsmith; Saliva spills
4. Poetry; Blogging: I want to remember
5. Google-Fu
6. Mensa; Missed chances to rake-in awards in college; Destiny: physician
7. Porn: when soft becomes better than hard; Messy room; Super typhoon Reming
8. Channel 2 and my mother; Inocente De Ti
9. Getting slim; Fitness; Tripped @ bus stop
10. Philippine industrialists; Why aren't there Matsushitas and Hondas here?
11. Christmas: An atheist's view
12. GMA's faults from a leftist's perspective
13. PI 100: why Christians, especially Catholics shouldn't take it
14. Joel's what ifs?
15. The difference a good first makes
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Masamang pangitain
Mga ilang araw na ang nakalipas, napanaginipan kong kinasal ka--hindi sa akin kundi sa ibang tao. Pagkagising ko, tila bangungot. May lihim pala akong gusto sa iyo. Naiilang kasi ako dahil magaling ka. Pero kung sakaling mapunta ka sa iba, masama pala ang madarama ko. Humahanga ako sa mga magaganda, sa ngunit mas matindi ang paghanga ko sa mga matatalino. Hindi ko sinasabing hindi ka maganda, pero marahil ganoon na nga. Tiyak lang ako na hindi ka pangit para sa akin. Lihim na pagtingin, iyan ang susing salita. Isa itong palaisipan, tingnan natin kung mayroong makakuha ng sagot. Pwede kayong humingi ng susundan ninyo mula sa akin.
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Death
I kill and kill myself everyday but I do not die. Is self-hatred too much? I have learned my lesson. Although I explode everyday, or jump into a hole, I just seem to survive. My history has shown the truth. Seven semesters has passed and it seems that I am lucky to pass my biology subjects. I passed all of them, but I attribute most to luck and my skillful guessing. Joel guessed his way through BS Biology. Well, I don't want that to happen anymore. It's not that I don't want to pass; it's just that I want to pass with minimal guessing, especially of the nature which is not intelligent.
So how does the master try to kill himself everyday?
1. Play computer games from dawn till twilight.
2. Waste his time checking the foolish YM if somebody has sent him a message.
3. Check his emails; sees spam.
4. Friendster. Well not anymore for checking out chicks and people. Just checking out who's viewed his profile and views them back not anonymously. He's too lame to switch things on and off which he previously unfailingly did.
5. Always wear the casual crossed face.
6. Does not do his tasks.
7. Stays up late at night; gets to his class or appointment late by as much as one hour.
8. Neglects his room and his soul. Although he does not believe in religion, he thinks that beings have social and psychological needs to be satisfied. The psyche.
9. Eating until or even beyond the point of satiety.
10. Thinks of himself and of other people negatively.
11. Maligning himself, just like in this self-righteous blog.
12. Does not accept with his whole heart that some people are simply better than him.
13. Allowing opportunities to pass him by.
14. Does not realize his full genius, which he believes he has.
15. Feels that his family will always be there to respond to most his needs when rational thinking dictates otherwise.
So how does the master try to kill himself everyday?
1. Play computer games from dawn till twilight.
2. Waste his time checking the foolish YM if somebody has sent him a message.
3. Check his emails; sees spam.
4. Friendster. Well not anymore for checking out chicks and people. Just checking out who's viewed his profile and views them back not anonymously. He's too lame to switch things on and off which he previously unfailingly did.
5. Always wear the casual crossed face.
6. Does not do his tasks.
7. Stays up late at night; gets to his class or appointment late by as much as one hour.
8. Neglects his room and his soul. Although he does not believe in religion, he thinks that beings have social and psychological needs to be satisfied. The psyche.
9. Eating until or even beyond the point of satiety.
10. Thinks of himself and of other people negatively.
11. Maligning himself, just like in this self-righteous blog.
12. Does not accept with his whole heart that some people are simply better than him.
13. Allowing opportunities to pass him by.
14. Does not realize his full genius, which he believes he has.
15. Feels that his family will always be there to respond to most his needs when rational thinking dictates otherwise.
Monday, October 30, 2006
Not love
A long, long time ago
I said I love you
And meant it
This time
I can't say it anymore
And couldn't mean it anymore
Don't know what made me
Say such words
Now, I know
It wasn't love
Looking back
This makes it
Easier for me
To accept myself
For wasting the chance
Allowed it to pass by
Without me grabbing it
Yes, you've moved on
And to you, I was just
An unpleasant memory
At this moment
I could claim the same
You may have been comely
But I have matured
Outside form isn't
The only thing that matters
Although it sure does
For, most often than not
A stare lasting
One split second is all it takes
To become enamored
This applies to both gents and ladies
Your looks were above average
I judged you by a single parameter
Nothing more
And now, I am enlightened
Good criteria are
composed of many factors
This is the rule
Today, I regret
That we didn't reconcile
You neither become my friend
Nor a personal acquaintance
I've tried hardenough
Not to think of you
But I love myself
So much so that I don't want to
Restrain myself
From expressing my innermost feelings
This weblog has no specific purpose
Only a general one:
To fulfill my need
To express myself
An act I have long restrained
From doing
Since my elementary and high school days
Including college
I have mixed emotions of you
Although my mind tells me
I should only have one:
Hatred
Your rejection of me
Caused great anguish
A feeling that any man
In his right frame of mind
And who isn't a masochist
Would surely avoid
Everybody desires to belong
I desired to belong to you
I guess it isn't wise
To use passion all the way
A path I almost resorted to
I am neither good nor bad
Only human
What matters to me is success
Evolutionarily and biologically
An organism is successful
If he reproduces
And passes his genetic material
To his offspring
Sex appeal is what
Makes the world go round
I'd like to believe
In part
I can defend this stand
Do you know physical attraction?
I'm sure you do
The raging emotion
Manifesting it
Caused by hormones in your body
For good or bad
You can't control it
All was triggered by
The selfish DNA
You and all humans have
You have
Or say the least had
Sex appeal
And if you had it
You couldn't and shouldn't
Blame people for getting
Attracted to you
There are varied
Positive reactions
To this such as
Admiration
Attraction
Obsession
You could say
I had all those feelings
Towards you
However
Beauty causes feelings
Other than those aforementioned
Which are considered good
Because I felt
Jealousy
Anger
Hatred
Animosity
Animosity
For you
I said I love you
And meant it
This time
I can't say it anymore
And couldn't mean it anymore
Don't know what made me
Say such words
Now, I know
It wasn't love
Looking back
This makes it
Easier for me
To accept myself
For wasting the chance
Allowed it to pass by
Without me grabbing it
Yes, you've moved on
And to you, I was just
An unpleasant memory
At this moment
I could claim the same
You may have been comely
But I have matured
Outside form isn't
The only thing that matters
Although it sure does
For, most often than not
A stare lasting
One split second is all it takes
To become enamored
This applies to both gents and ladies
Your looks were above average
I judged you by a single parameter
Nothing more
And now, I am enlightened
Good criteria are
composed of many factors
This is the rule
Today, I regret
That we didn't reconcile
You neither become my friend
Nor a personal acquaintance
I've tried hard
Not to think of you
But I love myself
So much so that I don't want to
Restrain myself
From expressing my innermost feelings
This weblog has no specific purpose
Only a general one:
To fulfill my need
To express myself
An act I have long restrained
From doing
Since my elementary and high school days
Including college
I have mixed emotions of you
Although my mind tells me
I should only have one:
Hatred
Your rejection of me
Caused great anguish
A feeling that any man
In his right frame of mind
And who isn't a masochist
Would surely avoid
Everybody desires to belong
I desired to belong to you
I guess it isn't wise
To use passion all the way
A path I almost resorted to
I am neither good nor bad
Only human
What matters to me is success
Evolutionarily and biologically
An organism is successful
If he reproduces
And passes his genetic material
To his offspring
Sex appeal is what
Makes the world go round
I'd like to believe
In part
I can defend this stand
Do you know physical attraction?
I'm sure you do
The raging emotion
Manifesting it
Caused by hormones in your body
For good or bad
You can't control it
All was triggered by
The selfish DNA
You and all humans have
You have
Or say the least had
Sex appeal
And if you had it
You couldn't and shouldn't
Blame people for getting
Attracted to you
There are varied
Positive reactions
To this such as
Admiration
Attraction
Obsession
You could say
I had all those feelings
Towards you
However
Beauty causes feelings
Other than those aforementioned
Which are considered good
Because I felt
Jealousy
Anger
Hatred
Animosity
Animosity
For you
Saturday, October 28, 2006
Pamimili
Ang galing! Kakapansin ko pa lang na dalawa pala ang pwedeng kahulugan ng salitang pamimili. Ang una ay yaong ginagawa sa palengke. Ang ikalawa naman ay yaong ginagawa sa ating pang-araw-araw na buhay: ang mamili ng desisyon. Wala akong ideya kung ano sa dalawang mga gawain na ito ang nauna sa naturang depinisyon at ano ang sumunod lamang. Pero sa tingin ko, nauna ang pumapatungkol sa gawaing sa pang-araw-araw na buhay.
Mayroon akong napagnilay-nilayan: Ang pagpili ng mga desisyon sa buhay ay parang pamimili sa palengke. Ang buhay ay parang palengke. Ito ay magulo. Araw-araw, mayroong tayong mga pangangailangan na siyang kailangan nating pagpursigihan at pagkagastusan. At sa araw-araw, may nakalaang pondo na dapat nating ibadget upang ito'y magkasya. Kung hindi ito magkasya, pwede tayong magtiis muna o 'di kaya ay mangutang. Subalit dapat nating isaisip na ang panghihiram ng salapi ay isang espadang dalawa ang talim. Kung hindi tayo magiging maingat sa paggamit nito, maaaring lubos tayong maghirap dahil dito sa pamamagitan ng interes. Kung sakaling wala namang interes ang pautang, huwag ka pa rin magsasaya. May interes pa rin ito sa anyo ng utang ng loob. Kung sakaling nagkaroon ka na ng utang ng loob, dapat mo itong kilalanin. Datapwat, hindi ito kailanman o dapat na mangahulugan ng pagtutulak sa isang sulok ng iyong mga prinsipyo sa buhay.
Ang buhay ay puno ng mga manloloko at mga gahaman, tulad sa isang palengke kung saan may mga sinungaling at madayang mga manininda, snatster na mahirap, hasler na mahilig mangulimbat, batugan na tamad, lamon ng lamon na mukhang pagkain, patay-gutom na buhay pa rin, tambay na walang magawa, lasinggero na walang pambili ng tubig, nagsisigarilyo na nilalason ang kapaligiran, manyak na mahilig sa seks, raypis na hindi kuntento sa pagjajakol, mamamatay-tao na ayaw hayaang mabuhay ang iba, mamamatay-ipis -daga -pusa atbp., palaboy na walang sarili matitirahan, ulila na iniwan sa hindi pa takdang panahon ng kanilang mga magulang, batang malilikot na dapat parusahan sa sobrang kaingayan, matandang nabubulok na ang tanging iniintay na lamang ay ang sandali ng kanilang kamatayan, magsasakang api, mangingisdang mahilig sa katubigan, mangangalakal na mukhang pera, propesyunal na gayon din, atbp.
Haay, buhay! Masalimuot. Walang gaydbuk o syortkat. Ang pinakamagaling na guro ay ang karanasan. Pwede kang magpatulong pero hindi tumpak na pagbasehan ang karanasan ng iba. Gayunpaman, huwag kang matakot na magkamali ngunit matakot kapag minaliit mo ang iyong sarili.
Ang daldal ko 'no? Pasensya na po, ganyan kasi sa palengke e. Sa sobrang ingay, hindi na kayo magkarinigan. Okey lang iyon. Basta maging mapagmatyag ka lang kasi baka umabot ang panahon kung saan hindi mo na marinig ang lahat, maging ang iyong sariling mga boses, ang iyong konsyensya at opinyon. Dahil kung nagkagayon na ay siguradong hindi ka na nag-eeksis.
Mayroon akong napagnilay-nilayan: Ang pagpili ng mga desisyon sa buhay ay parang pamimili sa palengke. Ang buhay ay parang palengke. Ito ay magulo. Araw-araw, mayroong tayong mga pangangailangan na siyang kailangan nating pagpursigihan at pagkagastusan. At sa araw-araw, may nakalaang pondo na dapat nating ibadget upang ito'y magkasya. Kung hindi ito magkasya, pwede tayong magtiis muna o 'di kaya ay mangutang. Subalit dapat nating isaisip na ang panghihiram ng salapi ay isang espadang dalawa ang talim. Kung hindi tayo magiging maingat sa paggamit nito, maaaring lubos tayong maghirap dahil dito sa pamamagitan ng interes. Kung sakaling wala namang interes ang pautang, huwag ka pa rin magsasaya. May interes pa rin ito sa anyo ng utang ng loob. Kung sakaling nagkaroon ka na ng utang ng loob, dapat mo itong kilalanin. Datapwat, hindi ito kailanman o dapat na mangahulugan ng pagtutulak sa isang sulok ng iyong mga prinsipyo sa buhay.
Ang buhay ay puno ng mga manloloko at mga gahaman, tulad sa isang palengke kung saan may mga sinungaling at madayang mga manininda, snatster na mahirap, hasler na mahilig mangulimbat, batugan na tamad, lamon ng lamon na mukhang pagkain, patay-gutom na buhay pa rin, tambay na walang magawa, lasinggero na walang pambili ng tubig, nagsisigarilyo na nilalason ang kapaligiran, manyak na mahilig sa seks, raypis na hindi kuntento sa pagjajakol, mamamatay-tao na ayaw hayaang mabuhay ang iba, mamamatay-ipis -daga -pusa atbp., palaboy na walang sarili matitirahan, ulila na iniwan sa hindi pa takdang panahon ng kanilang mga magulang, batang malilikot na dapat parusahan sa sobrang kaingayan, matandang nabubulok na ang tanging iniintay na lamang ay ang sandali ng kanilang kamatayan, magsasakang api, mangingisdang mahilig sa katubigan, mangangalakal na mukhang pera, propesyunal na gayon din, atbp.
Haay, buhay! Masalimuot. Walang gaydbuk o syortkat. Ang pinakamagaling na guro ay ang karanasan. Pwede kang magpatulong pero hindi tumpak na pagbasehan ang karanasan ng iba. Gayunpaman, huwag kang matakot na magkamali ngunit matakot kapag minaliit mo ang iyong sarili.
Ang daldal ko 'no? Pasensya na po, ganyan kasi sa palengke e. Sa sobrang ingay, hindi na kayo magkarinigan. Okey lang iyon. Basta maging mapagmatyag ka lang kasi baka umabot ang panahon kung saan hindi mo na marinig ang lahat, maging ang iyong sariling mga boses, ang iyong konsyensya at opinyon. Dahil kung nagkagayon na ay siguradong hindi ka na nag-eeksis.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Bawal, konsensya, pagiging iba
Gusto kong anuhin yung entiti. Alam mo na iyon. Halimbawa, masarap yung pagkain, masarap kainin. Gusto kong lantakan yung masarap na pagkain. E pa'no kung hindi iyon sa akin? Iyon pala ay pag-aari ng ibang tao. Anong gagawin ko? Iiwan ko na lang ba iyong pagkain? Kung gayon, hindi na didikit o dadampi sa aking mga labi yung pagkain. Hindi ko na siya maamuy-amoy ayon sa aking layaw. Nariyan siya pero hindi ko siya maaaring galawin. Nariyan, nasa aking harapan ang isang resors pero hindi ko ito maeksployt o mapakinabangan. Kahit na kakarampot na bahagi nito ay hindi para sa aking pagkonsumo. Nakalulungkot, sadyang nakalulungkot ang buhay. E kung nakawin ko na lang kaya? Tapos kung nasa tagong lugar na kami ay doon ko siya pagparausan? Hindi ko alam.
Ang katotohanan ay tanging mga pisikal na mga bagay lang ang pwedeng ariin. Mga bagay lamang ang maaaring kasangkapanin. Sa madaling sabi, hindi ko pag-aari ang aking kasintahan, hindi ko pag-aari ang asawa ko, hindi ko pag-aari ang anak ko, atbp. Kaugnay nito, ano kaya ang sunod sa pag-aari? Ang pagpayag o consent sa pamamagitan ng isang kasunduan. Hindi ko maaaring pilitin ang akin partner na makipagtalik sa akin (lalo na kung ayaw niya), pero makakamtan ko ang aking nais kung kusa ko siyang mapahinuhod. Consent/Consentia/Konsensya, tila tanging tao ang mayroon nito. Sa aking palagay, hindi ito namamana. Ito ay unang natututunan sa panahon ng kabataan hanggang sa matyurasyon. Para itong kultura sa proseso ng pagkakatuto rito--kung ano ang pagtingin sa katamaan o kamalian ng mga bagay-bagay at pagkilos. Ang konsensya ay ang bahagi ng tao na nagkoconsent o hindi nagkoconsent sa mga balakin ng nagmamay-ari nito.
Hindi na mabibilang ang mga sandali sa aking buhay kung saan ninais kong gumawa ng masama sa aking kapwa. Gayunpaman, ang bawat tangka ay hinarangan ng aking konsensya. Sa totoo lang, hindi ako takot na gumawa ng masama. Takot ako na sa aking paggawa ng masama para sa aking ikabubuti ay mayroong makahuli sa akin. Takot ako sa parusang makakamtan sa aking pagiging deviant.
Grabe, pakiramdam kong mababaliw na ako dahil sa naiiba ang aking pag-iisip sa nakararaming tao. Ang hirap maiba. Ang hirap malamang ang katotohanan bilang pioneer. Ang hirap noong malaman kong walang Diyos, walang demonyo, walang anghel, na tao ang lumikha sa Diyos at iba pang mga nilalang na supernatural.
Ang katotohanan ay tanging mga pisikal na mga bagay lang ang pwedeng ariin. Mga bagay lamang ang maaaring kasangkapanin. Sa madaling sabi, hindi ko pag-aari ang aking kasintahan, hindi ko pag-aari ang asawa ko, hindi ko pag-aari ang anak ko, atbp. Kaugnay nito, ano kaya ang sunod sa pag-aari? Ang pagpayag o consent sa pamamagitan ng isang kasunduan. Hindi ko maaaring pilitin ang akin partner na makipagtalik sa akin (lalo na kung ayaw niya), pero makakamtan ko ang aking nais kung kusa ko siyang mapahinuhod. Consent/Consentia/Konsensya, tila tanging tao ang mayroon nito. Sa aking palagay, hindi ito namamana. Ito ay unang natututunan sa panahon ng kabataan hanggang sa matyurasyon. Para itong kultura sa proseso ng pagkakatuto rito--kung ano ang pagtingin sa katamaan o kamalian ng mga bagay-bagay at pagkilos. Ang konsensya ay ang bahagi ng tao na nagkoconsent o hindi nagkoconsent sa mga balakin ng nagmamay-ari nito.
Hindi na mabibilang ang mga sandali sa aking buhay kung saan ninais kong gumawa ng masama sa aking kapwa. Gayunpaman, ang bawat tangka ay hinarangan ng aking konsensya. Sa totoo lang, hindi ako takot na gumawa ng masama. Takot ako na sa aking paggawa ng masama para sa aking ikabubuti ay mayroong makahuli sa akin. Takot ako sa parusang makakamtan sa aking pagiging deviant.
Grabe, pakiramdam kong mababaliw na ako dahil sa naiiba ang aking pag-iisip sa nakararaming tao. Ang hirap maiba. Ang hirap malamang ang katotohanan bilang pioneer. Ang hirap noong malaman kong walang Diyos, walang demonyo, walang anghel, na tao ang lumikha sa Diyos at iba pang mga nilalang na supernatural.
Monday, October 23, 2006
Abnormal and exciting
Not long ago, while I was walking at Liberty Avenue with my mother, an unusual idea struck my mind: "Normal and boring. Abnormal and exciting." Wow! It was a new way at looking at life. And what I was referring to was relationships and marriage. It is normal for couple in love to be haphazard in deciding to marry one another. They marry and what the heck? And what happens? They immediately ruin their relationship and love. Reality creeps in, real-life problems, issues, to say a few. They beget children. At first, the children were the symbol of their love for one another. After not so many years, the fact that they have children is the only thing that keeps the marriage intact. It started as a sweet, ridiculously sweet story. How will it end up? A bad, ridiculously bad history.
And how about the abnormal, the abnormal and exciting? What I am talking about here is the unorthodox way of dealing with things. Fantasies, perversions, non-missionary sex positions, live-in/try-out marriage. Just think of any bizarre idea and let's start with it. Your mind is the limit. Your partner does not have to pressure you to do anything you don't want to do or anything which doesn't seem to be necessary. Just because it is tradition does not mean it has to take place. This is a good start, and so I hope.
And how about the abnormal, the abnormal and exciting? What I am talking about here is the unorthodox way of dealing with things. Fantasies, perversions, non-missionary sex positions, live-in/try-out marriage. Just think of any bizarre idea and let's start with it. Your mind is the limit. Your partner does not have to pressure you to do anything you don't want to do or anything which doesn't seem to be necessary. Just because it is tradition does not mean it has to take place. This is a good start, and so I hope.
Friday, October 20, 2006
Odd
It has been 3 days since I took my last exam for the 1st semester and I haven't made post in this blog. If you were observant, you'd notice that even in my busier days, I managed to make time to post something, something worth talking about, something worth noticing.
So what's currently occupying Joel? Online games:
1. Travian
2. Slave Hack
3. Cruentus
4. Warrior Fields
5. Torn City
6. Deadly City
So what's currently occupying Joel? Online games:
1. Travian
2. Slave Hack
3. Cruentus
4. Warrior Fields
5. Torn City
6. Deadly City
Sunday, October 15, 2006
Forum/Chat
Nice!
http://help.travian.com/faq.php?page=dic_forum/chat
http://help.travian.com/faq.php?page=dic_forum/chat
| Abbreviation | Definition |
| 1337 | leet/l33t (=Elite) |
| afaik | as far as I know |
| afair | as far as I remember |
| afk | away from keyboard |
| aka | also known as |
| asap | as soon as possible |
| b2t/btt | back to topic |
| banning | to deny access for someone for a certain period |
| b00n/boon | noob |
| btw | by the way |
| cu/cya | See you later |
| dc | disconnect |
| flame/flaming | the act of posting messages that are deliberately hostile and insulting, usually in the social context of a discussion board on the Internet |
| gl | good luck |
| gn8 | good night |
| gz/grz | Congratulations |
| hf/hfgl | have fun / have fun and good luck |
| IMHO/IMO | in my (humble/honest) opinion |
| ign | ingame-nick/name |
| IRC | Internet Relay Chat |
| kick | to throw someone from a channel |
| Loot | Stolen resources |
| Netiquette | the conventions of politeness recognized on Usenet, in mailing lists, and on other electronic forums such as internet message boards |
| noob/newb/newbie | beginner (often negative) |
| np | no problem |
| pls/plz | please |
| PM/PN | Private Message |
| RL | Real Live |
| rofl | rolling on the floor laughing |
| RTFM | Read the fuckin` manual! |
| scnr | sorry, could not resist |
| Spam/spamming | posting of unneeded and abusive messages (could be in a forum, IRC-channel, or otherwise) |
| STFI | Search the fuckin` internet! |
| STFU | Shut the fuck up! |
| thx | thanks |
| wb | welcome back! |
| wtf | what the fuck? |
| yw | you`re welcome! |
Bintang
'Tcha. 'Tchang 'na mo.
Ang nangyari: Tinanong niya sa akin kung nakita ko/nasa 'kin yung libro niya. Sabi ko hindi. Umakma siyang titingin sa bag ko. Hinayaan ko siya. 'Pagkabukas ng bag ko ay nakita naming dalawa na naroon. Pinagbintangan pa niyang magnanakaw 'ko.
Hindi ko alam kung paano punta iyon sa mga gamit ko. Pero malansa ang nangyari. Nung nilapitan niya ako, nabakas ako na siguradong-sigurado siya na nasa akin iyon. Putang ina mo. Ano ba ang poynt mo? Obyus namang itinanim mo lang iyon 'dun. Anong gagawin ko sa dalawang Bio 132 lab manual? 'Kaw siguro tunay na magnanakaw. Nawala kaya yung lab exercise ko sa 33-hour chick embryo na aking iniwan sa lalagyan sa pintuan ni Ma'am MLCdeGuzman. Pinagawa tuloy ako ng bago. Bisi pa naman ako noong mga panahong iyon. Shet ka.
'Tang na mo! Nabasa mo lang ang mga blag ko, kala mo pwede mo na akong husgahan! Maaaring napakamateryalista at makamundo ko, pero patuloy pa rin ako sa pagkilala sa kahalagahan ng katotohanan. Ang totoo nga 'yan ay umamin ako ng aking nadamang pagkiling sa pakikipagkaibigan sa isang babae sa pamamagitan ng pagsasabi ng totoo kong pangalan. Masasabi kong isa ito sa aking mga big mubs sa buhay ko. Kaunti lang siguro sa nakakikilala sa akin na sa all-boys skul (La Salle Greenhills) ako nag-aral ng mga 10 taon. Ang hirap 'non, lalung-lalo na noong nakapagtapos ako ng hayskul at nakatuntong sa UP Diliman. Parang biglang nagbago ang mundo ko dahil naoberwelm ako sa dami ng babae. Noong mga unang buwan sa aking pamamalagi sa naturang institusyon, marami akong naging krash, at isa na nga ang binibining nabanggit sa itaas.
Hanggang doon na muna kasi baka may mailagay na naman ako ritong maaaring makapagpahamak sa aking o 'di kaya'y makapaglagay sa akin sa isang masamang posisyon. Heto lang ang nowt ko sa gustong mapabilang sa gud at nyutral sayd ng pagtingin ni Joel: "Huwag niyo akong pagbibintangan, lalung-lalo na kung hindi kayo siguradong gilti ako. Kung hindi, baka kung ano pa ang magawa kong hindi kanais-nais o karumaldumal sa inyo."
Ang nangyari: Tinanong niya sa akin kung nakita ko/nasa 'kin yung libro niya. Sabi ko hindi. Umakma siyang titingin sa bag ko. Hinayaan ko siya. 'Pagkabukas ng bag ko ay nakita naming dalawa na naroon. Pinagbintangan pa niyang magnanakaw 'ko.
Hindi ko alam kung paano punta iyon sa mga gamit ko. Pero malansa ang nangyari. Nung nilapitan niya ako, nabakas ako na siguradong-sigurado siya na nasa akin iyon. Putang ina mo. Ano ba ang poynt mo? Obyus namang itinanim mo lang iyon 'dun. Anong gagawin ko sa dalawang Bio 132 lab manual? 'Kaw siguro tunay na magnanakaw. Nawala kaya yung lab exercise ko sa 33-hour chick embryo na aking iniwan sa lalagyan sa pintuan ni Ma'am MLCdeGuzman. Pinagawa tuloy ako ng bago. Bisi pa naman ako noong mga panahong iyon. Shet ka.
'Tang na mo! Nabasa mo lang ang mga blag ko, kala mo pwede mo na akong husgahan! Maaaring napakamateryalista at makamundo ko, pero patuloy pa rin ako sa pagkilala sa kahalagahan ng katotohanan. Ang totoo nga 'yan ay umamin ako ng aking nadamang pagkiling sa pakikipagkaibigan sa isang babae sa pamamagitan ng pagsasabi ng totoo kong pangalan. Masasabi kong isa ito sa aking mga big mubs sa buhay ko. Kaunti lang siguro sa nakakikilala sa akin na sa all-boys skul (La Salle Greenhills) ako nag-aral ng mga 10 taon. Ang hirap 'non, lalung-lalo na noong nakapagtapos ako ng hayskul at nakatuntong sa UP Diliman. Parang biglang nagbago ang mundo ko dahil naoberwelm ako sa dami ng babae. Noong mga unang buwan sa aking pamamalagi sa naturang institusyon, marami akong naging krash, at isa na nga ang binibining nabanggit sa itaas.
Hanggang doon na muna kasi baka may mailagay na naman ako ritong maaaring makapagpahamak sa aking o 'di kaya'y makapaglagay sa akin sa isang masamang posisyon. Heto lang ang nowt ko sa gustong mapabilang sa gud at nyutral sayd ng pagtingin ni Joel: "Huwag niyo akong pagbibintangan, lalung-lalo na kung hindi kayo siguradong gilti ako. Kung hindi, baka kung ano pa ang magawa kong hindi kanais-nais o karumaldumal sa inyo."
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
SMAC Biologist
 | Name: | Deirdre Skye Lt. Commander Chief Botanist/ Xenobiologist Scotland 05-28-2025 170.1 cm 52.2 kg |
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| Service Record: Born 2025, Edinburgh Scotland, father a U.N. security consultant assigned to various crisis locales worldwide. Studied at Cornell University School of Agriculture, acquired Bachelor of Science in Agriculture and Environmental Biology, Masters in Biology, Ph.D. Biology and Genetics. Immediately distinguished self with deep intuitive knowledge of plant strains and ability to intuit powerful genetic manipulations at Bionex Research Lab, White Plains, N.Y. Later worked for Red Cross and United Nations Disaster Relief Fund to revitalize radiation contaminated areas with highly specialized biostrains (Skye variation v097 apple and Skye Mark IV wheat strain considered as highest examples of adaptable biogenetics in contaminated soil). Selected as top candidate for Mission Botanist/Xenobiologist by U.N. Alpha Centauri Mission Committee, appointed against wishes of Chief Science Officer Prokhor Saratov. | ||
| Psych Profile: Conservationist Relies on deep intuitive sense combined with scientific knowledge for determination of future actions. Powerful mind and will combined with broad base of knowledge leads her to excel in chosen area of expertise. Sense of isolation from childhood events (e.g. divorce of parents) and pre-launch events reinforces strong tendency to introversion. Strong connection to environmental causes may cloud scientific judgment; strong democratic leadership style may result in subject placing welfare of loyal subordinates above welfare of mission as a whole. Appeals to reason should prove effective in discouraging these behaviors. |   | |
 | FutureWorks: "Planet Dreams" "Our Secret War" "A Comparative Biology of Planet" "The Collected Poems" |  |
Faction: Gaia's Stepdaughters Founding Base: Gaia's High Garden | ||
| In the great commons at Gaia's Landing we have a tall and particularly beautiful stand of white pine, planted at the time of the first colonies. It represents our promise to the people, and to Planet itself, never to repeat the tragedy of Earth. -- Lady Deirdre Skye, "Planet Dreams" | ||
Monday, October 09, 2006
Updates
1. Minadali ko ang rebyu na papel ko sa Bio 122.
2. Minadali ko ang paggawa ng parte ko sa group PowerPoint presentation sa Bio 122.
3. Sinabi ko sa isang nagtanong kung nasaan ang Heart Center.
4. Mukhang hindi na ako magpafinals sa Bio 122. Parang ikucurve. Sana pumasa po.
5. Nahulaan ni Ma'am Jacinto na gusto ko mag-US.
6. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyari sa mga papel sa Bio 160.
2. Minadali ko ang paggawa ng parte ko sa group PowerPoint presentation sa Bio 122.
3. Sinabi ko sa isang nagtanong kung nasaan ang Heart Center.
4. Mukhang hindi na ako magpafinals sa Bio 122. Parang ikucurve. Sana pumasa po.
5. Nahulaan ni Ma'am Jacinto na gusto ko mag-US.
6. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nangyari sa mga papel sa Bio 160.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
Sakim
Sakim ang mga nabaBio 160. Ayaw magbigay sa kapwa kamag-aral. Ayaw mag-eksamen sa ganito, ganyang araw. Nainis tuloy si DALagunzad; hindi na niya pinospon ang aming eksaminasyon--nagtest kami kanina. Sayang, nakondisyon na kasi ang aking utak na pospond na ang eksam. Haay! Anlabo nga at alis, balik, alis, balik kami kanina--IB 104, PH 4205, IB 104, IB labi, IB 104. Hindi pa naman ako handa sa eksam. Umasa na lang ako sa multipol choys na 48/60. Ang esay ay 3/60 at ang grapikal na representasyon o matimatika na pagkakatulad ay 9/60. Mag-aano sana, ano: grup test. Kaya nga lang ay nagbak-owt kami. Siguro ito ay dahil:
1. Ayaw na naming kumuha uli (ng test).
2. Walang tiwala ang nakakarami sa amin (sa aming grup meyts).
3. Nahawa kami sa papalit-palit na pag-iisip ni DAL.
Siya nga pala, gusto kong ikwento yung tungkol sa berd ni Jim--yaong parakeet na lalaking dinala niya. Nagdala siya ng ibong para ihandog sa isang chick. Gets? Kung nakasagi ako ng berd keyg, may ibon man o wala sa loob nito, magpapaumanhin ako at babalikan ko ito para ayusin. Hindi ko nakita yung nahuli kanina. Hindi ako sigurado kung gagawin ko rin ang ayos, ang nararapat.
1. Ayaw na naming kumuha uli (ng test).
2. Walang tiwala ang nakakarami sa amin (sa aming grup meyts).
3. Nahawa kami sa papalit-palit na pag-iisip ni DAL.
Siya nga pala, gusto kong ikwento yung tungkol sa berd ni Jim--yaong parakeet na lalaking dinala niya. Nagdala siya ng ibong para ihandog sa isang chick. Gets? Kung nakasagi ako ng berd keyg, may ibon man o wala sa loob nito, magpapaumanhin ako at babalikan ko ito para ayusin. Hindi ko nakita yung nahuli kanina. Hindi ako sigurado kung gagawin ko rin ang ayos, ang nararapat.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Exams, exams!
Remaining exams for this semester:
Oct 6 (Fri): Bio 160 - 2nd lec exam, class time
Oct 7 (Sat): Bio 122 - 4th lec exam, 9 A.M.
Oct 11 (Wed): Bio 121 - 2nd lec exam, 10 A.M.
Oct 12 (Thurs): Bio 122 - 3rd lab exam
Oct 13 (Fri): Bio 132 - 4th lab exam
Oct 17 (Tues): Bio 132 - 4th lec exam, 11:30 A.M.
I would have passed them all when all is done.
Oct 6 (Fri): Bio 160 - 2nd lec exam, class time
Oct 7 (Sat): Bio 122 - 4th lec exam, 9 A.M.
Oct 11 (Wed): Bio 121 - 2nd lec exam, 10 A.M.
Oct 12 (Thurs): Bio 122 - 3rd lab exam
Oct 13 (Fri): Bio 132 - 4th lab exam
Oct 17 (Tues): Bio 132 - 4th lec exam, 11:30 A.M.
I would have passed them all when all is done.
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Next semester
There's no Seminar on Tuesday or Friday!
Class Code Class Credits Schedule
37541 BIO 119 TFV 5 TF 11:30a-1:00p lec IB 104
37542 BIO 119 TFVXY TF 2:30p-5:30p lab IB 211
37563 BIO 151 TQR 3 T 7:30a-9:30a lec IB 203
37564 BIO 151 TQRFQR F 7:00a-10:00a lab IB 204
37570 BIO 196 HO 1 Th 6:00p-7:00p seminar IB 104
37575 BIO 200 E 4
Class Code Class Credits Schedule
37541 BIO 119 TFV 5 TF 11:30a-1:00p lec IB 104
37542 BIO 119 TFVXY TF 2:30p-5:30p lab IB 211
37563 BIO 151 TQR 3 T 7:30a-9:30a lec IB 203
37564 BIO 151 TQRFQR F 7:00a-10:00a lab IB 204
37570 BIO 196 HO 1 Th 6:00p-7:00p seminar IB 104
37575 BIO 200 E 4
Monday, October 02, 2006
Rubyfruit Jungle
This is what I learned from Rita Mae Brown's book: Women are not sex objects, they are sex machines.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Lakas ng Milenyo
Dumaan si Milenyo. 'Kay rami niyang pinerwisyo, lalung-lalo na sa Katimugang Tagalog at NCR. May kuryente na. At ang araw ngayon ay Sabado. Nakakalungkot nga at walang kuryente noong Miyerkules at Biyernes. Hindi ako nakapaglaro ng kompyuter. Hindi rin ako nakapag-aral dahil wala ngang ilaw. Sinubukan kong gumamit ng kandila pero hindi ako tumagal ng isang oras, sumakit po ang aking mga mata! Meralco. Dapat kumpiskahin na iyan ng pamahalaan. Sana nga lang at totohanang nakapagpahinga ako. Balik na ako sa katotohanan--ang aking buhay na maraming ginagawa. Muntik na akong mabaliw. Muntik na rin akong masanay na walang kuryente. Okey lang sa akin kung wala nito. Pero aaminin kong lalo pang mahuhuli ang Pilipinas sa pang-ekonomikong karera kung hindi na bumalik ang kuryente sa madaling panahon. May napagnilay-nilayan akong mahalaga: Isang tunay na pangulo si PGMA. Maaaring hindi malinis ang pagkakapanalo niya. Wala na akong pakialam dito. Hindi na ako aydiyalista. Nasabi kong tunay siyang pangulo at lider dahil mayroon siyang presens of maynd. Hindi siya napapapanik sa panahon ng sakuna o suliranin. Matatag siya, 'sing tatag ng republikang pinamunuan niyang itayo sa pamamagitan ng mga matataas buwis. Sa isang pagtingin, siya ay ang ating ina, siya ay si Sisa ni Jose Rizal ngunit hindi siya nabaliw dahil sa mga masalimuot na mga pangyayari sa kanyang buhay. Bagkus, siya ay lumakas at ngayo'y simbolo ng makibagong pakikibaka ng matapang na Pilipino. Tunay siyang matatawag na Lakas ng Milenyo!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Una
Ito ang unang pagkakataong sumama ako sa field para sa SP namin sa Bio 160.
Ito rin ang unang pagkakataon na:
1. Nadulas ako pagkatapos ng Makiling field work namin sa naturang asignatura.
2. Lumusong ako sa International Center pond para makuha ang periphyton sample namin na nahulog sa ibabang bahagi ng katawan ng tubig dahil ito ay di-umano'y pinigtas ng isang masamang isda ang taling sumuspindi sa blokeng bato. Ang bato ay ang siyang pinatungan ng 4 na glass slides para rito sa artipisyal na sabstratum kumapit ang mga periphyton.
Ito rin ang unang pagkakataon na:
1. Nadulas ako pagkatapos ng Makiling field work namin sa naturang asignatura.
2. Lumusong ako sa International Center pond para makuha ang periphyton sample namin na nahulog sa ibabang bahagi ng katawan ng tubig dahil ito ay di-umano'y pinigtas ng isang masamang isda ang taling sumuspindi sa blokeng bato. Ang bato ay ang siyang pinatungan ng 4 na glass slides para rito sa artipisyal na sabstratum kumapit ang mga periphyton.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Dibdib at Tiyan
Pauwi ako kanina, mga 5:30 N.U. Galing ako sa lektyur ng Bio 121. Nasa labas na ako ng Pab 4. Nagmamadali ako para maaga akong makauwi at para maunahan ang binibining inililink sa akin na aking mga kamag-aral. Naunahan ko siya at ang isa pa naming kaklaseng babae sa weyting shed sa tapat ng IB. Naunang nakasakay ang kasama niya. Sumenyas ang drayber ng isang paparating na dyip--tatlo pa ang makakasakay. Kaming dalawa sa tatlo ang nakasakay. Ni hindi kami nagkatabi ni nagkatapat. Sakay ng isang dyip at patungong Philcoa, ako ay nakaupo sa kanang bahagi ng sasakyan. Bumaba ang mga pasahero sa aking kaliwa; dapat sana ay makauupo na ako sa dulo ng behikulo, kaya nga lang ay may sumakay na isang ale. Ginawa kong makuntento sa pangiging pangalawa sa dulo. Kaya nga katabi ko pa rin sa aking kanan ang isang binibini. Masikip ang dyip; ito ay puno. Nahihirapan akong umupo dahil nga matangkad ako at ang kaliwang kamay ng binibini ay nakaangkla sa hawakan sa bubong ng sasakyan. Nakaangkla naman ang aking kanang kamay sa parehong hawakan. Ika nga sa Bio 132, nakatorsyon ang katawan ko. Mabuti na lamang at ibinaba ng dalaga ang kanyang kamay. Gumanda ang aking pagkakaupo. Dahil nga puno at masikip ang behikulo, naramdaman ko ang isang bagay na malambot na kasanggga ng kanang gilid ng aking tiyan. Halos sigurado akong ito ay ang kanyang dibdib, para kasi itong serpeys ng isang ispir. Ang sarap palang makadama nito--mainit-init. Tinaasan ko ang ang pagiging respansib upang mapabuti ang aking pag-iimagin. Inayos ko ang aking pagkakaupo para sa maayos na sirkulasyon ng hangin sa aking katawan, lalung-lalo na sa alam mo na. Gusto ko na siyang harasin. Lalo ko pang inadyas ang oryentasyon ng aking tiyan upang imaksimays ang mga istimulus na aking nadarama. Ginawa ko ito hanggang bumaba ako sa Philcoa. Nang palapit na kami sa istasyon ng Petron, umakma rin siyang bababa. Napansin kong hindi naman siya kagandahan. Bumaba ang ilang tao bago ako. Sinubukan pa nga niya akong unahan sa pagbaba ngunit hindi ako nagpahuli. Umuulan nga pala sa aming pagbaba at hindi kami ibinababa sa may silong na bahagi ng istasyon ng gasolina. Hindi ko na binuksan ang aking payong upang agad na makasilong. Siya naman, suot at kulay puti, ay binukas ang kanyang payong at saka na lang pumunta sa may silong, sa bandang harap ko. Hindi ko na maalala ng tiyak kung sino ang naunang sumakay sa ibang sasakyan sa aming dalawa. Sumakay ako sa isang bus ng MGP Trans. Kamuktik pa nga akong mabangga dahil hindi ko napansin na isang trak na pik-ap sa aking kaliwa. Nakasakay ako sa bus at umupong nag-iisa sa bandang dulo ng sasakyan, sa kaliwang bahagi kung saan hanggang tatlong tao ang pwedeng maupo. Ikinalat ko ang aking bag at payong upang matiyak ang aking kumportableng pagkakaupo. May isang babae na sumakay at maganda siya. Puno ang mga upuan bago umabot sa akin kaya naman kinuha ko ang aking mga gamit at baka piliin niyang umupo sa aking tabi. Sa mas likod pang bahagi ng behikulo siya naupo.
Pagninilay sa isang relasyon
"Mabuti na lang at nawala na siya sa buhay ko. Sana makalimutan na niya ang mga nangyari sa aming dalawa. Nandidiri at nagsisisi ako sa tuwing naaalala ko ang mga iyon." -- 'Di kilala
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Religions
"Religions--I reject them altogether. They are neither valid nor acceptable." -- Joel Duque
Friday, September 22, 2006
Desisyon
Isa. Isang maling desisyon. Isang maling desisyon lamang at ang lahat ay maaaring kalabanin ka. Maaaring matisod, masugatan at madulas sa walang katapusang ispayral na pababa. Masama ang loob sa loob ng mahabang panahon. Parang hindi na ito bago sa iyo. Wala kang maintindihan sa iyong nakapalibot. Bakit kaya sila ganito, bakit sila ganoon? Ano ba ang pagkakaiba mo sa kanila. Bukod ba silang pinagpala habang ikaw ay isinumpa, ikinasusuklam ng halos lahat? Walang nakakaintindi. Ang gaspang nila. Hindi ba ikaw nadarama? Kuntento ka na ba sa sarili mong mundo? Nag-iisa. Kunwari'y masaya sa piling ng maraming tao, sa katotohana'y blanko. Nagpapakita ng makinis at pinong pag-uugali, ngunit ang natural nama'y ang kabaligtaran. Unti-unti ng nagagasgas ang iyong kaanyuang ang lalim ay hanggang balat lamang. Galit ka sa mundo, ayaw mo lang aminin. Hindi mo lang alam ay higit pa ang galit nito pabalik sa iyo. Tao. Ang rupuk-rupok mo. Kaunting pihit lang ay lumalabas na ang iyong depekto. Ang sabi mo ginawa ka ng isang nilalang na perpekto, walang bahid ng malisya. Paano mo ipaliliwanag ang sari-saring karahasang nasa iyong paligid? 'Teka, huwag ka munang magsalita. Alam ko na ang sasabihin mo. Na ganito, ganyan. Tumigil ka na, tumigil ka na sa iyong kabaliwan. Hindi magbabago ang anuman, lalung-lalo na kapag iyong iniaasa ang katuparan ng mga bagay-bagay sa isang walang buhay. Kung sakaling mamimili ka, piliin mo yaong may katuturan. Paganahin at gamitin ang iyong kaisipan. Kuntento ka na ba sa pamumuhay na mababa kaysa iyong tunay na ninanais? Sana hindi. Kung gusto mong umunlad, kung ang kagustuhang ito ay busilak, ba't hindi mo isaasa ang lahat sa iyong sarili. Huwag mong maliitin ang sarili. At sa huli, sa ilalim ng tamang pag-iisip at pangangatwiran, hindi ka lamang makagagawa ng isang tamang pasya, kung hindi marami.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Funny and frustrating
You know what's funny and frustrating at the same time? My computer. It automatically restarts whenever I play a game with it. It's like the computer has a mind of its own. It somewhat limits what I am able to do with it. It seems that it has a preference for academic work, which I should be doing. Look at my schedule for the next week:
22 Sept (Fri) - Submit Cemetery Demography paper (Bio 160), Special Project Oral Presentation (Bio 121)
23 Sept (Sat) - 3rd Lecture Examination (Bio 122)
24 Sept (Sun) - "Rest"
25 Sept (Mon) - 3rd Lecture Examination (Bio 132), Special Project Draft Paper (Bio 160)
26 Sept (Tues) - 2nd Laboratory Examination (Bio 121)
27 Sept (Wed) - 3rd Laboratory Examination (Bio 132)
22 Sept (Fri) - Submit Cemetery Demography paper (Bio 160), Special Project Oral Presentation (Bio 121)
23 Sept (Sat) - 3rd Lecture Examination (Bio 122)
24 Sept (Sun) - "Rest"
25 Sept (Mon) - 3rd Lecture Examination (Bio 132), Special Project Draft Paper (Bio 160)
26 Sept (Tues) - 2nd Laboratory Examination (Bio 121)
27 Sept (Wed) - 3rd Laboratory Examination (Bio 132)
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Iba-iba
Ang aking katanungan: Ang lahat ba ay may dahilan? Ipaliwanag.
Magkakaibang tao ang nag-aaplay sa organisasyon. Iba-iba rin ang pamamaraan nila sa pagsagot ng sigsheet. Ito ang bahagyang listahan:
- ordinaryo
- kakaiba
- seryoso
- hindi seryoso
- sumasagot ayon sa sarili
- gamit ang utak
- gamit ang 'puso'
- hindi sumasagot ayon sa sarili
- walang tiwala sa sarili
- sadyang tamad
Sa kasalukuyang mukhang nakararami sa kanila ang naniniwalang lahat, mga bagay at pangyayari, ay may kaniya-kaniyang dahilan. Parang nalilito rin sila sa aking katanungan. Ikinakabit ng iba ang relihiyon o paniniwala sa kanilang pagsagot.
Magkakaibang tao ang nag-aaplay sa organisasyon. Iba-iba rin ang pamamaraan nila sa pagsagot ng sigsheet. Ito ang bahagyang listahan:
- ordinaryo
- kakaiba
- seryoso
- hindi seryoso
- sumasagot ayon sa sarili
- gamit ang utak
- gamit ang 'puso'
- hindi sumasagot ayon sa sarili
- walang tiwala sa sarili
- sadyang tamad
Sa kasalukuyang mukhang nakararami sa kanila ang naniniwalang lahat, mga bagay at pangyayari, ay may kaniya-kaniyang dahilan. Parang nalilito rin sila sa aking katanungan. Ikinakabit ng iba ang relihiyon o paniniwala sa kanilang pagsagot.
Friday, September 15, 2006
NECRamirez
At the start of this semester, I already noticed that NECRamirez was a brilliant individual. The way by which he treated us (Biology majors in a course strictly for Biology majors-Bio 121) somewhat differed with how he treated Bio 12 students (I was also his student in the latter course). In Biology 12, he was somewhat carefree, letting us explore the laboratory materials. In my course under him this semester, he was more concerned with us, more concerned into what kinds of scientists and what personalities we were ultimately developing as individuals. Today, NECRamirez sermoned about
A) The importance of special projects (conducting them and listening to oral presentations of them) and
B) Bloom's Taxonomy
6. Evaluation
5. Synthesis
4. Analysis
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3. Application
2. Comprehension
1. Knowledge
4-6: Critical Thinking
A) The importance of special projects (conducting them and listening to oral presentations of them) and
B) Bloom's Taxonomy
6. Evaluation
5. Synthesis
4. Analysis
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3. Application
2. Comprehension
1. Knowledge
4-6: Critical Thinking
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
PMHS Sigsheet
Question: Does everything have a reason? Explain.
Answer: No. Philosophically, reason itself fails to have an explanation for some things or phenomena. Scientifically, as it is currently the case, not all things have been explained by science.
Should I believe in God?
No. Because God does not exist or at least sufficient reason for his existence is lacking or absent. Why should anyone believe in an entity that just doesn't exist? There is absolutely no point. Scientists who do so are even more ridiculous. It is better to believe that your real pet dog created the world. We are sure that it definitely existed within the time-space continuum.
Answer: No. Philosophically, reason itself fails to have an explanation for some things or phenomena. Scientifically, as it is currently the case, not all things have been explained by science.
Should I believe in God?
No. Because God does not exist or at least sufficient reason for his existence is lacking or absent. Why should anyone believe in an entity that just doesn't exist? There is absolutely no point. Scientists who do so are even more ridiculous. It is better to believe that your real pet dog created the world. We are sure that it definitely existed within the time-space continuum.
PDA
Is public display of affection something you like? I think it is somewhat awkward both for the engaged couple and the viewers. Nothing in this world is fantastic in itself but man's constant will for something better.
Monday, September 11, 2006
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Kaaway sa IB
Mayroon akong kaaway sa IB. Mayroong may galit sa akin sa IB. Mayroong ahente ng masamang nilalang na kumikilos para sa kanya sa IB. Kung kailangan kong mag-ingat, mas kailangan niyang mag-ingat.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Benefits of pornography
http://www.dailybruin.ucla.edu/DB/issues/98/12.03/
view.gever.html
Pornography helps women, society
BENEFITS: 'Dirty' media relieve sexual tensions, but subject to unjust law
by Mathew Gever
Repressing sexuality seems to be a hallmark of our country. Whether it's the impeachment of "Blow Job" Bill or slapping letters of approval on movies, this nation finds it necessary to control issues of carnal knowledge.
Pornography falls under this paradigm. There is a false idea in our society that controlling pornography is somehow beneficial to us. Pornography is an issue that serves as a scapegoat for the ills of society. It is one of the few, if not the only, issues where religious reactionaries and radical feminists agree. The religious right blames it for moral bankruptcy while the militant feminist division blames it for the continued subjugation of women.
Both these arguments warrant a closer examination.
The religious right takes a stance against pornography in hopes of enforcing good Christian values among people. What this means is that people should not be having sex, and that women belong back in the kitchen baking pies and knitting sweaters.
Then there are the radical feminists, who regard pornography as an endangerment to women. What they argue is that women cannot possibly consent to sex, since we live in a male-dominated society which renders consent impossible. This has led to action by this bloc to impede any production of pornography.
One example of this is a Minneapolis anti-porn ordinance issued in 1983. This ordinance stated that all women who worked in porn were coerced and could sue the producers and distributors, whether or not the woman was of age, was fully aware of what she was doing and had signed a release. This ordinance claimed that women were incapable of rendering decisions for themselves and needed the government to protect them. The ordinance even stated that "Children are incapable of consenting to engage in pornographic conduct, even absent physical coercion and therefore require special protection. By the same token, the physical and psychological well-being of women ought to be afforded comparable protection." (Wendy Mcelroy, "Banning Pornography Endangers Women", December 1997)
So this is what hundreds of years of feminism has brought us to - women are no smarter than children.
Some anti-porn crusaders also argue that pornography poses a physical threat to women. They claim that the viewing of pornography leads to violence against women. A number of problems exist with this argument. First, there is no real method to objectively measure the impact of pornography on a person's actions. Sexual responses are endemic to the individual and cannot be accurately measured by a laboratory setting.
Also, pornography can serve as a mitigating factor in sexual violence. It provides a healthy release for those with pent up sexual frustration. Who is going to sexually assault a person after they have just masturbated in their living room? Without this release, sexual frustration builds up and can easily manifest itself in the form of violence.
Research by the The National Research Council's Panel on Understanding and Preventing Violence has shown that there is no demonstrated link between pornography and violence against women. Also, research by Larry Baron and Murray Straus has shown that there is a negative correlation between pornography and gender violence. For example, look at Iran and Saudi Arabia. Both have strict anti-pornography laws, yet they still have high instances of violence against women. Compare that with countries such as Denmark and Germany - in both countries pornography is readily accessible, yet they have some of the lowest rates of violence against women. (http://www.carnell.com/feminism/pornography/porn001.html)
Some may blame this discrepancy on cultural differences. But remember, Denmark produced the Vikings - and we all know what Germany was capable of - so it is wrong to say that violence is not a part of their cultures.
To further illustrate this point, look at Medieval Europe. This was a period when rape was at its highest levels. Penthouse did not exist at this time. Neither did "Debbie Does Dallas." Yet violence against women persisted, since men did not have a safe place to release their sexual frustration.
In addition, blaming pornography diffuses responsibility away from the culprit. Anyone tried for sexual assault can blame pornography and say that he was not in control of his actions. Videotapes do not rape, people do, and responsibility should be assigned as such.
In fact, rather than harming women, pornography actually brings them a number of benefits. This is one of the few industries where women are paid more than men. Also, pornography allows for experimentation and breaks orthodox standards of sexuality. The idea of lying in the missionary position while counting the stars is flouted, and instead the enjoyment of sex is encouraged. Restricting pornography limits the choices that a woman has and invokes the repression of Victorian times.
This relates to another important point. Despite the common stereotype, the greatest number of people renting porn are couples. This is shown in the increase of "chick porn," which is pornography geared especially toward women. These media emphasize the female sexual experience and encourage couples to experiment. There is no violence or degradation, just people enjoying themselves.
Also, compare pornography to other things that are legally available, and see which is worse. For example, one can go to Blockbuster and rent "Faces of Death," yet one can not rent the original version of "Showgirls."
I see the logic: watching animals getting disemboweled is healthy, whereas watching people voluntarily having sex is not.
In fact, our anti-porn laws have gotten so ridiculous that a law now exists that prevents the simulation of child pornography. This means that if the people involved appear to be under 18, the act is a crime.
The actors involved could both be 35, but if they look underage, the act is a crime.
Who decides whether they appear to be underage? Generally it is the government, abiding by another subjective law that has no concrete basis, but rather it exists on ambiguous criteria.
And do not forget the issue of freedom of expression. Pornography involves consenting adults who so choose to be involved in this field. The First Amendment does not say anything about protecting what is morally proper, but rather the choice of the individual to express himself or herself in whatever legal manner he or she pleases. For some, pornography is this means of expression. If one is offended by porn, do not watch or look at it. There is no law saying you have to. Therefore, it is no one's business to regulate what a person decides to do with his or her own body.
Anti-porn crusaders do nothing more than degrade women. By pushing for legislation, these factions serve to promote the idea that women cannot make decisions for themselves and need the protection of the patriarchal state.
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Pornography helps women, society
BENEFITS: 'Dirty' media relieve sexual tensions, but subject to unjust law
by Mathew Gever
Repressing sexuality seems to be a hallmark of our country. Whether it's the impeachment of "Blow Job" Bill or slapping letters of approval on movies, this nation finds it necessary to control issues of carnal knowledge.
Pornography falls under this paradigm. There is a false idea in our society that controlling pornography is somehow beneficial to us. Pornography is an issue that serves as a scapegoat for the ills of society. It is one of the few, if not the only, issues where religious reactionaries and radical feminists agree. The religious right blames it for moral bankruptcy while the militant feminist division blames it for the continued subjugation of women.
Both these arguments warrant a closer examination.
The religious right takes a stance against pornography in hopes of enforcing good Christian values among people. What this means is that people should not be having sex, and that women belong back in the kitchen baking pies and knitting sweaters.
Then there are the radical feminists, who regard pornography as an endangerment to women. What they argue is that women cannot possibly consent to sex, since we live in a male-dominated society which renders consent impossible. This has led to action by this bloc to impede any production of pornography.
One example of this is a Minneapolis anti-porn ordinance issued in 1983. This ordinance stated that all women who worked in porn were coerced and could sue the producers and distributors, whether or not the woman was of age, was fully aware of what she was doing and had signed a release. This ordinance claimed that women were incapable of rendering decisions for themselves and needed the government to protect them. The ordinance even stated that "Children are incapable of consenting to engage in pornographic conduct, even absent physical coercion and therefore require special protection. By the same token, the physical and psychological well-being of women ought to be afforded comparable protection." (Wendy Mcelroy, "Banning Pornography Endangers Women", December 1997)
So this is what hundreds of years of feminism has brought us to - women are no smarter than children.
Some anti-porn crusaders also argue that pornography poses a physical threat to women. They claim that the viewing of pornography leads to violence against women. A number of problems exist with this argument. First, there is no real method to objectively measure the impact of pornography on a person's actions. Sexual responses are endemic to the individual and cannot be accurately measured by a laboratory setting.
Also, pornography can serve as a mitigating factor in sexual violence. It provides a healthy release for those with pent up sexual frustration. Who is going to sexually assault a person after they have just masturbated in their living room? Without this release, sexual frustration builds up and can easily manifest itself in the form of violence.
Research by the The National Research Council's Panel on Understanding and Preventing Violence has shown that there is no demonstrated link between pornography and violence against women. Also, research by Larry Baron and Murray Straus has shown that there is a negative correlation between pornography and gender violence. For example, look at Iran and Saudi Arabia. Both have strict anti-pornography laws, yet they still have high instances of violence against women. Compare that with countries such as Denmark and Germany - in both countries pornography is readily accessible, yet they have some of the lowest rates of violence against women. (http://www.carnell.com/feminism/pornography/porn001.html)
Some may blame this discrepancy on cultural differences. But remember, Denmark produced the Vikings - and we all know what Germany was capable of - so it is wrong to say that violence is not a part of their cultures.
To further illustrate this point, look at Medieval Europe. This was a period when rape was at its highest levels. Penthouse did not exist at this time. Neither did "Debbie Does Dallas." Yet violence against women persisted, since men did not have a safe place to release their sexual frustration.
In addition, blaming pornography diffuses responsibility away from the culprit. Anyone tried for sexual assault can blame pornography and say that he was not in control of his actions. Videotapes do not rape, people do, and responsibility should be assigned as such.
In fact, rather than harming women, pornography actually brings them a number of benefits. This is one of the few industries where women are paid more than men. Also, pornography allows for experimentation and breaks orthodox standards of sexuality. The idea of lying in the missionary position while counting the stars is flouted, and instead the enjoyment of sex is encouraged. Restricting pornography limits the choices that a woman has and invokes the repression of Victorian times.
This relates to another important point. Despite the common stereotype, the greatest number of people renting porn are couples. This is shown in the increase of "chick porn," which is pornography geared especially toward women. These media emphasize the female sexual experience and encourage couples to experiment. There is no violence or degradation, just people enjoying themselves.
Also, compare pornography to other things that are legally available, and see which is worse. For example, one can go to Blockbuster and rent "Faces of Death," yet one can not rent the original version of "Showgirls."
I see the logic: watching animals getting disemboweled is healthy, whereas watching people voluntarily having sex is not.
In fact, our anti-porn laws have gotten so ridiculous that a law now exists that prevents the simulation of child pornography. This means that if the people involved appear to be under 18, the act is a crime.
The actors involved could both be 35, but if they look underage, the act is a crime.
Who decides whether they appear to be underage? Generally it is the government, abiding by another subjective law that has no concrete basis, but rather it exists on ambiguous criteria.
And do not forget the issue of freedom of expression. Pornography involves consenting adults who so choose to be involved in this field. The First Amendment does not say anything about protecting what is morally proper, but rather the choice of the individual to express himself or herself in whatever legal manner he or she pleases. For some, pornography is this means of expression. If one is offended by porn, do not watch or look at it. There is no law saying you have to. Therefore, it is no one's business to regulate what a person decides to do with his or her own body.
Anti-porn crusaders do nothing more than degrade women. By pushing for legislation, these factions serve to promote the idea that women cannot make decisions for themselves and need the protection of the patriarchal state.
Friday, September 08, 2006
Password strength
https://www.google.com/accounts/PasswordHelp
How safe is your password?
The first step in protecting your online privacy is creating a safe password - i.e. one that a computer program or persistent individual won't easily be able to guess in a short period of time. To help you choose a secure password, we've created a feature that lets you know visually how safe your password is as soon as you create it.
Tips for creating a secure password:
* Include punctuation marks and/or numbers.
* Mix capital and lowercase letters.
* Include similar looking substitutions, such as the number zero for the letter 'O' or ' * Create a unique acronym.
* Include phonetic replacements, such as 'Luv 2 Laf' for 'Love to Laugh'.
Things to avoid:
* Don't use a password that is listed as an example of how to pick a good password.
* Don't use a password that contains personal information (name, birth date, etc.)
* Don't use words or acronyms that can be found in a dictionary.
* Don't use keyboard patterns (asdf) or sequential numbers (1234).
* Don't make your password all numbers, uppercase letters or lowercase letters.
* Don't use repeating characters (aa11).
Tips for keeping your password secure:
* Never tell your password to anyone (this includes significant others, roommates, parrots, etc.).
* Never write your password down.
* Never send your password by email.
* Periodically test your current password and change it to a new one.
How safe is your password?
The first step in protecting your online privacy is creating a safe password - i.e. one that a computer program or persistent individual won't easily be able to guess in a short period of time. To help you choose a secure password, we've created a feature that lets you know visually how safe your password is as soon as you create it.
Tips for creating a secure password:
* Include punctuation marks and/or numbers.
* Mix capital and lowercase letters.
* Include similar looking substitutions, such as the number zero for the letter 'O' or ' * Create a unique acronym.
* Include phonetic replacements, such as 'Luv 2 Laf' for 'Love to Laugh'.
Things to avoid:
* Don't use a password that is listed as an example of how to pick a good password.
* Don't use a password that contains personal information (name, birth date, etc.)
* Don't use words or acronyms that can be found in a dictionary.
* Don't use keyboard patterns (asdf) or sequential numbers (1234).
* Don't make your password all numbers, uppercase letters or lowercase letters.
* Don't use repeating characters (aa11).
Tips for keeping your password secure:
* Never tell your password to anyone (this includes significant others, roommates, parrots, etc.).
* Never write your password down.
* Never send your password by email.
* Periodically test your current password and change it to a new one.
©2005 Google
Monday, August 28, 2006
iVillage
This site is all about sex literature. Nothing is intrinsically bad about sex. Many of you say that it is. Some, on the other hand, will say otherwise. (Sex is great.) Judge for yourself. For those that inhibit themselves from even thinking about it, think again. I know that you can fight that tendency. If you are successful at going over it and if you are enlightened, then I congratulate you. If not, then you are most likely unfit. If you are ready or have long been ready, then click here.
Hinudas ko si Rizal
Kaninang umaga, papunta akong UP. May piso sa sahig. Nagdalawang-isip akong kunin dahil iyon ay nasa tabi ng paa ng isang taong nakaupo--anlaki ng hita ng mama. Hindi ko na tinuloy ang balak kong iligtas si Laong Laan. Lumapit na ang bus namin sa aking babaan. Sa huli, umalis ako sa aking upuan. Hindi umalis ang mama sa kanyang kinalagyan papuntang upuan ko. Ibang mama ang lumipat; siya ay payat. Hindi ko na naituloy ang pagliligtas ko kay Rizal mula sa behikulo. Trinaydor ko siya. Hindi ko alam kung gustong niya rin namang siya'y aking iligtas. Desidido na siyang magpakabayani at mamatay bilang bayani. Wala siyang pakialam kung saan siya lalagay, sa kaliwa o sa kanan. Para sa kanya, pareho lang kaming gahaman ng mama. Mukhang pera. Hindi siya busilak na simbulo ng isang bayani. Hindi naman ako nasyonalista. Hanggang sa muli nating pagkikita, mga ligaw na barya, este mga bayani pala. Nawa'y muli kayong magpakita o magparamdam sa akin sa kalsada, sa eskinita, o sa anumang sulok ng Pilipinas.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Animated GIFs
I was able to make my first animated GIF today. Here it is:
The originals are pictures of Taal Volcano taken with my phone. I used UnFREEz 2.1. Unfortunately, it donesn't seem to move in this blog. Just try following the link. I plan to learn making amazing and optimzed GIFs.
The originals are pictures of Taal Volcano taken with my phone. I used UnFREEz 2.1. Unfortunately, it donesn't seem to move in this blog. Just try following the link. I plan to learn making amazing and optimzed GIFs.
Friday, August 25, 2006
Saludo
Saludo ako kay Ma'am SDJacinto. Ayon sa kanya, magkikwis kami bawat miting sa Bio 132. Alam ko rin namang para ito sa aming ikabubuti. Mahirap ngunit sa tuwing mas sinusubukan ang aking kakayanan, mas lumalaban ako. Isa kasi akong payter. Kung gugustuhin, kaya. Gusto ko naman e. Gusto ko talaga.
Monday, August 21, 2006
Hate
I am genuinely starting to hate this computer life of mine. I can't stand this anymore. I tried to build an Internet Joel persona but I guess it's not good enough for me. I don't want to run away anymore. I'll use this computer only for authenthic school stuff. Promise.
If You're Not The One
by Daniel Bedingfield
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms?
If You're Not The One
by Daniel Bedingfield
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?
I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms?
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Paningin
Ang paraan sa pagtingin sa isang bagay ay mahalaga. Bilang halimbawa, tingnan natin ang tunggalian ng pagpipigil at pagpapadaloy. Pipigilan ko ba ang aking nadarama o hahayaan kong kontrolin ako nito? Ang sagot diyan ay madali:
Pipigilan ko ang aking sarili sa paggawa ng hindi tama. Ako ay magtitiyaga upang magkanilaga. Iisipin ko kung ano talaga ang gusto ko sa aking buhay sa darating na 25 taon.Alam ko na ang kasagutan. Mahina lang talaga ang aking loob. Kailangan kong magpalakas, magpakatalino at magpakatino. Para sa aking sarili. Una at higit sa lahat, para sa aking sarili lamang. Susunod na roon ang para sa ibang tao. Dapat kong mahalin ang aking sarili--yaong tunay na pagmamahal. Hindi yaong payak na pagsunod sa layaw ng aking katawan. Nararapat lamang na isama ang kalusugan ng aking isip. Ito naman ay apektado ng estado ng aking katawan. Sa inyong nakakita na sa akin, alam niyong hindi ako malusog. Mataba ako. Masama ang loob ko rito. Masarap kumain. Sana maintindihan niyo iyon. Huwag niyo akong basta-basta husgahan ng kung anu-ano dahil tiyak na magagalit ako sa inyo. Dapat ko ring ikondisyon ang aking sarili ukol dito. Hahabaan ko ang aking pasensya.
Panalo o talo?
Hindi ko tataluhin ang mga sumusunod:
1. Miyembro ng 03-bsbio o kamag-aral
2. Aplikante o miyembro ng organisasyong kinabibilangan ko UP PMHS
Sa madaling salita, hindi ko tataluhin ang isang mag-aaral.
Hindi ko tataluhin ang isang katrabaho.
Sa kasalukuyan, may gusto akong mga aplikante. Hindi ko ito sasabihin sa kahit na sino hangga't:
1. Aplikante pa rin siya/sila ng organisasyon.
2. Miyembro pa rin ako ng organisasyon.
Malinaw iyan ha. Kaya huwag niyo akong kukulitin tungkol dito. Tiyak din naman akong maglalaho ang aking mga pagnanasa, tulad ng nangyari noong naging matagumpay ang aming bats at ang sumunod na bats sa amin sa pagiging miyembro ng naturang samahan.
1. Miyembro ng 03-bsbio o kamag-aral
2. Aplikante o miyembro ng organisasyong kinabibilangan ko UP PMHS
Sa madaling salita, hindi ko tataluhin ang isang mag-aaral.
Hindi ko tataluhin ang isang katrabaho.
Sa kasalukuyan, may gusto akong mga aplikante. Hindi ko ito sasabihin sa kahit na sino hangga't:
1. Aplikante pa rin siya/sila ng organisasyon.
2. Miyembro pa rin ako ng organisasyon.
Malinaw iyan ha. Kaya huwag niyo akong kukulitin tungkol dito. Tiyak din naman akong maglalaho ang aking mga pagnanasa, tulad ng nangyari noong naging matagumpay ang aming bats at ang sumunod na bats sa amin sa pagiging miyembro ng naturang samahan.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Bayolohiya
Pabago-bago ako
Dati, galit ako sa 'yo
Pero ngayon, 'kaw na lang ang aking sandigan
Hindi pala ikaw ang aking kaaway
Hindi ako magaling makipaglokohan
Hindi ako bihasa sa pagpapanggap
Kaalaman
Hindi nagbabago
Hindi nanloloko
Mahirap iasa ang kaligtasan sa pagsasaya
Sa paglalaro
Sa walang kabuluhan
Dati, galit ako sa 'yo
Pero ngayon, 'kaw na lang ang aking sandigan
Hindi pala ikaw ang aking kaaway
Hindi ako magaling makipaglokohan
Hindi ako bihasa sa pagpapanggap
Kaalaman
Hindi nagbabago
Hindi nanloloko
Mahirap iasa ang kaligtasan sa pagsasaya
Sa paglalaro
Sa walang kabuluhan
Monday, August 14, 2006
Mag-aaral akong mabuti
Mga grado:
Unang Mahabang Pagsusulit sa Bio 122 lab: 87/100
Unang Mahabang Pagsusulit sa Bio 132 lec: 64/100
Unang Mahabang Pagsusulit sa Bio 122 lab: 87/100
Unang Mahabang Pagsusulit sa Bio 132 lec: 64/100
Saturday, July 29, 2006
Enclaving
"Enclaving is not illegal, I suppose. It is present everywhere, even in the politics of real life." -- Joel Duque
Manyak pala si Bobby Pagulayan
Mga isang taon pa lang direktor ng aking yunit si Dr. Roberto C. Pagulayan (http://www.nib.upd.edu.ph/faculty/rcp.html). Nagtataka nga ako at bigla siyang naglaho ngayong semestre.
Ayon sa ikalawang isyu ng Kule ngayong 2006 (http://www.deviantart.com/download/35123719/), siya ay sinuspinde dahil sa panghihipo at pagsasalita ng kabastusan sa isang estudyante. Ang kapal niya upang sabihing inosente siya! Ang ibig niya bang sabihin ay mas sinungaling pa ang mga hamak na estudyanteng tulad ko kaysa sa mga pakulting tulad niyang nasa kapangyarihan na? Malaking kabalintunahan!
Nakakahiya siya. Siya pa naman ang pinuno o direktor ng institusyong kinabibilangan ko, ang Instityut ng Pag-aaral ng Buhay (Institute of Biology).
Ang laki naman niyang tanga. Sobrang libog siguro niya. Kahit pala may Ph.D. na ang isang tao ay posible pa rin siyang mapasuko ng tawag ng laman. Kung ako sa kanya, kung manghaharas ako, hindi ako papahuli.
Kung ako naman sa biktima, isasagad ko na ang aking pagrereklamo upang tuluyang makapagbayad ng kanyang malaking utang iyang si Pagulayan. Medyo 'big time' kasi siya. Aasamin at pagsisikapang kong makuha ang pinakamalaking anyo ng hustisyang maaari kong makamtan.
Nananabik tuloy ako sa paparating na Bio Majors' Day sa ika-16 ng Agosto, 2006. Magsasalita kaya sila (ang mga kapwa niya pakulti) tungkol sa isyung ito? Sa aking palagay, hindi. Mas matindi ang malasakit nila sa kapwa guro kaysa kanilang mga mag-aaral.
Ayon sa ikalawang isyu ng Kule ngayong 2006 (http://www.deviantart.com/download/35123719/), siya ay sinuspinde dahil sa panghihipo at pagsasalita ng kabastusan sa isang estudyante. Ang kapal niya upang sabihing inosente siya! Ang ibig niya bang sabihin ay mas sinungaling pa ang mga hamak na estudyanteng tulad ko kaysa sa mga pakulting tulad niyang nasa kapangyarihan na? Malaking kabalintunahan!
Nakakahiya siya. Siya pa naman ang pinuno o direktor ng institusyong kinabibilangan ko, ang Instityut ng Pag-aaral ng Buhay (Institute of Biology).
Ang laki naman niyang tanga. Sobrang libog siguro niya. Kahit pala may Ph.D. na ang isang tao ay posible pa rin siyang mapasuko ng tawag ng laman. Kung ako sa kanya, kung manghaharas ako, hindi ako papahuli.
Kung ako naman sa biktima, isasagad ko na ang aking pagrereklamo upang tuluyang makapagbayad ng kanyang malaking utang iyang si Pagulayan. Medyo 'big time' kasi siya. Aasamin at pagsisikapang kong makuha ang pinakamalaking anyo ng hustisyang maaari kong makamtan.
Nananabik tuloy ako sa paparating na Bio Majors' Day sa ika-16 ng Agosto, 2006. Magsasalita kaya sila (ang mga kapwa niya pakulti) tungkol sa isyung ito? Sa aking palagay, hindi. Mas matindi ang malasakit nila sa kapwa guro kaysa kanilang mga mag-aaral.
Friday, July 28, 2006
Masarap
Hindi ko lubos maisip kung paano magiging masarap ang isang babae. Hindi ko rin maisip kung paano magiging masarap ang sinumang tao. Hindi naman kinakain ang mga tao. At malamang hindi rin masarap ang tao kung sakaling makatikim ako. Kasiping? Masarap kayang kasiping si 'pangalan ng isang babae rito'? Hindi na kailangan noon. Sapat na ang imahinasyon kung layaw lang ng kalibugan ang susundin. Sa ngayon, makikipagtalik lamang ako para sa susunod na salinlahi. At sa ngayon, wala akong sapat na pamamaraan upang bumuhay ng isang pamilya. Mamumulubi lang kami at mapipilitang magbenta ng laman. Kung sa gayon, higit kong nanaising huwag na lamang mag-anak.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Prostister
Ang Friendster ay Prostister. Tila lugar ito ng malagong prostitusyon. Andaming magaganda, lalung-lalo na sa rehiyong Silangan at Timog-Silangang Asya. Marahil, maraming miyembro nito ay mga manyakis, stalker at walang magawa sa buhay. Tulad ko? Marahil. Sa totoo, hindi talaga libre ang kahit na ano, 'pag naglaan ka ng panahon. Kaya kung pipili ka lang ng mapaglalagakan resors, maging mapili ka!
Family: Who is Joel?
Joel is a complex individual. Apparently, he is the tall and discreet Biology major. He seldom talks. But when he speaks up, he does so sensibly. Individualistic and opinionated, he regularly exercises logical reasoning. He is skilled in expanding little ideas and condensing large ones. To enjoy conversations with him, a proficient level of intelligence is ideal.
He likes writing poems. Read his blog if you do not believe. An inveterate computer addict, he loves games so much. In fact, he even played them the day before taking the NMAT. Still, he managed to get a ninety-nine percentile rank in that exam!
Sensitive to his feelings and those of other people, he strives to be neutral and passive. Deeming relationships sacred, he is choosy with friends. Nevertheless, he can be counted on. In making decisions, he asks the views of others. But when he has made up his mind, he sticks to it no matter what.
Because of low self-esteem, he abhors being a volunteer or a leader. Yet when assigned to a task; he performs it thoroughly and meets the expectations. Surely, he works neatly and excellently.
In essence, Joel is a principled and big-hearted fellow of few words.
He likes writing poems. Read his blog if you do not believe. An inveterate computer addict, he loves games so much. In fact, he even played them the day before taking the NMAT. Still, he managed to get a ninety-nine percentile rank in that exam!
Sensitive to his feelings and those of other people, he strives to be neutral and passive. Deeming relationships sacred, he is choosy with friends. Nevertheless, he can be counted on. In making decisions, he asks the views of others. But when he has made up his mind, he sticks to it no matter what.
Because of low self-esteem, he abhors being a volunteer or a leader. Yet when assigned to a task; he performs it thoroughly and meets the expectations. Surely, he works neatly and excellently.
In essence, Joel is a principled and big-hearted fellow of few words.
Monday, July 24, 2006
End of the semester
I will be updating this blog when the semester of this academic year ends. I promise that. I shall be writing my thoughts on a notebook first and then transfer them when time shall permit me to do so.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
The Non-equivalence of Equivalence
The idea that 2 things are equivalent is just a dream. Two things can never be equivalent to one another because of their own characteristics states in time and space. Even if their unique states in time and space are not taken into account, no 2 things can still remain equivalent to one another. Difference in at least 1 one corresponding infinitesimal element can be easily assumed to be true rather than assuming that all corresponding elements are equivalent. This pessimism is a sad truth that we should unfortunately accept. Rather than dreaming with fantasies of beauty and perfection, we should rise above this world's ugliness and imperfection.
End: 4:39 P.M.
End: 4:39 P.M.
Success
Whatever you do, you will not fail. So when you do something, why not give it your best? Optimize your resources. Life is not about getting it all. That would be impossible. The good thing to do is to cover a wide ground.
End: 11:47 A.M.
End: 11:47 A.M.
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